Why is love so honestly difficult? It's not even love that's troubling me and invading my thoughts, it's just a school crush. Those puppy love crushes that usually don't last but the most enjoyable ones. That ones that make waking up early seem like a dream, the ones that take the pressure away from tests and the ones that seem to make everything pink and full of life.
There are so many questions I need the answers to. Does he like me? Is he just leading me on? Does he like someone else? Is that a sign? Does that mean something? Should I text him first? Should I wait for him so I don't seem desperate? Should I tell him that I like him and just get over it? Does he know I like him? Do I like him?
Do I like him. At the end of everything journey, there's freedom. You might not find it at first, but eventually you will. You will think back on your journey and you will remember it forever, for it left its mark on your soul.
But what if I don't want my journey to end just yet? I crave love and attention. I sometimes just want someone amazing and attractive to hold me in their arms forever and ever until I am ready to face the world again without the comforting feeling I have when I think about him.
It's hard to just let go of that journey. Yet it is also hard to continue it. The many questions and doubts and fears are too much to handle. Once you dive deep enough into your own emotions you start to question them. Just as I am now. I want to leave this journey and move on peacefully, yet I don't want my endless world of life and the pink color to end.
What do I do now?
