Silent Screams

Astronomy Tower

Josie's Pov:

Since Malfoy said exactly the things, that hurt me the most, I got quieter through the days and thought about how he was probably right all along. I tried to ignore him the best I could too, but he still had to say something, whenever he saw me.

I also discovered the astronomy tower for myself, the day after. 

I would often sneak out at night when everyone was sleeping, so I could go there to comfort myself. I'm not a fan of heights, but I feel safe there somehow. No one would be up there to hurt me with their words. Mostly I just go there to let everything out. To cry.

"Are you not going to eat anything?" Asked Pansy sitting across from me in the great hall. I shook my head. "Not hungry," I said, as I rested my head on my hand, not looking at something particular. She sighed as she stood up. I didn't even bother to look where she was going. I was too deep in my own thoughts.

I went back to our dorm when dinner was over, smashing myself on the bed, as I looked at my Owl Dusk. He was a beautiful brown and white owl and I absolutely adored him. I thank Hagrid every time I look at Dusk.

After a while of talking to my Owl, Pansy, and my other roommates, Daphne, Milicent, and Tracey entered the room. 

"No friends to accompany you these days?" Daphne asked amused when she saw me alone in our dorm. I rolled my eyes at her. I didn't like her from the beginning. She always thought she was better than everyone and had to show it. I didn't reply. 

I stood up and went into our bathroom to get ready for bed. Even if I knew I would not go to sleep again tonight.

Pansy and I talked for a bit more, till she fell asleep. I looked at the other beds, to see if everyone else was asleep too. Lucky for me, they were. I slipped out of my bed, got my robe and shoes, and silently walked out of the Slytherin dormitories.

I had to be careful to not get caught by any prefects, but that was never a problem since I had really good reflexes and could hide very well, even tho last time I nearly got caught by Percy Weasley. Jeez, that boy is everywhere! 

My wand I held firmly in my hand just in case.

This time I got to the astronomy tower without any circumstances.  I sat down and once again let my tears run free. Silently sobbing, I didn't hear the boy that was slowly approaching me.

"Josie." I heard and my head immediately shot in his direction. Shit.

"Harry I- what are you doing here?" I asked nervously but also confused. Did he follow me up here?

He came closer and sat down next to me. "Pansy Parkinson told me that you are acting differently and that you would sneak out in the middle of the night to do what Merlin knows what," he said as he looked at me concerned. "So you followed me?" he nodded and let out a sigh.