Andromache (Rosé x fem reader)

κεφάλαιο XII

"She's left? Just like that? No goodbye no nothing?" The anger I thought I learned to put aside came back flooding my brain.

"Well, you didn't really talk to her before she did." Alice tapped her now dry freshly painted nails on the counter.

But why. Why did she leave? Where did she go?

"Uh-huh. Ok, I see thank you. Stay healthy. Bye." My mom ended the call her eyes slanted with sadness.

"It was probably your fault and your anger drove her away. Gosh Roseanne she loved you so much that It hurt her and here you were hurting her when all she was looking was for an I'm sorry." And clearly, Alice was upset too, but it didn't make her words less true.

I drove her away. She loved me so much that she knew the only way to not deal with me and keep her heart safe was to leave.

"Alice stop no one drove y/n away!" My mom rubbed her forehead and covered her eyes. "Y/n's mom dealt with depression after she was taken from her home and her child and it took a toll on her. She's not doing well."

Both Alice and I looked at my mom, "she went to her mom. She dropped everything and went to her mom— god that poor child." My heart didn't feel lighter though, I just wasn't angry anymore. I knew Alice was also taken aback by the news from the way her eyes softened up.

I didn't know how to react, I didn't feel entitled to cry because the tears belonged to her. I hurt her and she probably needed someone when she learned about the news. And I wasn't there.

"What about school? Is she going to graduate? Mom... where is she?" Alice scoffed as she heard me.

"Now you're worried about her? I think it's a little too late now isn't it?" It was. She was gone and I couldn't go to her. I couldn't hold her like she held me.

My mom paced around the kitchen as she continued to rub her forehead her bare feet flipping around, "arguing about it won't help either I said enough Alice." And the room was only suffused by my mom's frustrated grunts. She was worried about the girl who she looked after like a daughter and her friend who wasn't doing well.

We were all taken aback by the news.

And the sadness didn't go away with time.

Alice had to go back to school to finish up and I was preparing for graduation alone.

The house was silent, even without her when she was still in the state the house was livelier, but with news and without y/n stomping down the stairs for snacks everything wasn't fun anymore.

My mom continued to call to check in with her godmother and it all made sense. Alice had mentioned that her family was being strangely nice and we figured that they knew beforehand. They knew what was going on and told her last minute.

Flashback

"You know I think it's cool that you know how to play instruments and stuff. My only talent is being cool." Y/n dusted her shoulder as I played my guitar.

It was the summer of 7th grade and we spent every day together, listening to music and dancing, watching TV shows, and wishing we were of legal age to take shots every time Shikamaru would say, 'what a drag' or Christina Yang would insult or piss someone off.

I was sitting on my desk chair playing a song I was learning as Y/n lays on the floor in front of me. Her back was on the floor and her arms were extended out to her face with a book opened and the words serving as stars like a clear night in the countryside.