Different | Colonel Miles Quaritch x y/n

Between guilt and forgiveness

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Depressed, the colonel sat on the floor. Captured and supervised by two Na'vi, he listened to the sound of the sea. His feelings of guilt and anger at himself almost crushed him. Tore the ground from under his feet. What had he done. He had hurt y/n. So much that she had turned away from him. Like when he had hit her because he lost control. Again he felt the painful twinge in his chest. His heart felt like it was being squashed.

Somehow he had to make it up to her.
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A day had passed in the meantime. My parents had told me the rest of the details. For example, that Miles is a Recom Avatar. That he used to be human but was killed by my mother and brought back years later by the sky people in Na'vi form. The pieces of the puzzle fell into place when I thought of the arrow of my mom, that had stuck in the machine. Or that he was partly responsible for the death of my grandfather who died before I was alive. They also explained to me why they were here with the sea people and not at home.

I also told them everything. What I had found with Miles in the laboratory. That I was an experiment, or should I say a mistake. How I almost died, was rescued by Quaritch and taken to the sky people. My mother freaked out when she discovered the big scar on my thigh. The last thing I told them was about Lyle and how Miles had gotten revenge on him for ME. I thought I saw my dad thinking about it, but maybe I was wrong.

But most of my time, however, I peeled myself away from the others and thought. I needed time to process everything. Of course, I had greeted my siblings yesterday and embraced them. I had also met a few of the Metkayina. As well as it had been possible in my condition.

Miles was locked in a kind of cell where he was monitored day and night. I had not yet exchanged any further words with him. The emphasis was on 'yet'. But did I even want to? Actually, my heart was crying out for it. It wanted to go to him and just forget all this. To feel his warmth again, his lips... But this time my mind was stronger. He had my siblings. He had hurt others. He wanted to kill my father.

I sighed and tried to drive the thought from my mind. Over and over I heard Miles shouting in my mind. 'I've changed y/n! Because of you! I'm not that man anymore!' I stared out at the sparkling sea. What was I going to do?

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The evening had arrived and we were eating together. I was just poking listlessly at the food and had no appetite. "Y/n you need to eat something." My father brought me out of my thoughts and looked at me with worried eyes, but I just shrugged my shoulders. I felt my mother stroking my leg reassuringly for a moment. Then I took a deep breath and looked up. "I will got to him." My father swallowed when he heard my words. I glanced around the room and saw one shocked face after another. "I can't let that happen." Again, I whipped my head around. "Yes you can dad. I'm not a little girl anymore. I can make my own decisions about what I do." My parents sighed at the same time. "He won't hurt me believe me. You don't know what we've been through together." My mind was made up and no one could change it. Even if my dad would forbid it, I would sneak out and he knew it. Admittedly, I was very good at that. "Ma'Jake?" My mom looked to him with raised eyebrows. "It's true you're not a kid anymore. You can decide for yourself, but remember what I said, remember what he did." That answer was enough for me and I got up to go on my way. "But y/n." Arriving at the exit, I turned back to my family. "The guards will stay." I exhaled audibly and finally ran outside.

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Arriving at the small prison that had interlocking branches tied together as walls, I stopped. I recognized Miles sitting in it on the ground with his head down. "You can go." I said to the two Na'vi who were standing guard. With a look of disbelief, they looked first at each other and then at me. "I have permission from Toruk Makto himself." I saw Miles look up and stare at me. The two Metkayina moved a few feet away, but still stopped in sight.

I took a short breath and gathered all my courage. "Was it all a lie?" I began. "Everything we've been through?" Miles stood up and walked to the grid. As close to me as he could get. "Y/n no!" It sounded so convincing I almost became weak. "Why? Why did you do all that?" I tried to see some expression on his face. "I'm- I'm sorry." His eyes looked tired, but 'I'm sorry' wasn't enough. I could feel my eyes slowly getting moist. "Y/n that man who was inside me, the one who is dead. He had haunted me. His memories, his essence. It haunted me all the way into my dreams. But I was freed...Freed by you." His words felt like sage on my soul. I didn't want to admit it to myself but I believed him. I was so damn naive that only a few words were missing to make me stop being disappointed in him. My head lowered. "Y/n I fell in love with you." All at once I pulled up and stared at him. With sparkling eyes, he gave me a slight nod. A tear made its way down my cheek. "Please believe me." He reached through the rods with one arm and wiped the tear away from me with his thumb. And then it was all over for me. I put my hand on his and looked at him.

"If you're really not the same man. If you really are the one I fell in love with." His eyes widened when he heard what I had just said.

"Then learn our customs. Try to convince my father...please."

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//Everything is slowly but surely approaching the finale. It's still just the beginning of the end but it's coming faster than you can say "skxawng" ^^ (1102 words)//