Falling for you (phan)

Chapter 10

Dans pov

"Um phil my crutches fell."

"I've got them hold onto my arm so you don't end up falling over." I do as I'm told and he leans down and picks them up. He was being careful not to go to fast or else I would tumble over and I didn't really want that right now.

"Here you go."

"Thank you."

"So where is this class of yours?"

"Um I don't really know but here is my schedule."

"You are just up ahead my class is right next to it."

"This looks so familiar."

"Do I look familiar?"

"You don't but your eyes do. I just remember your eyes and your hair." He smiles to himself.

"I'm happy you remember me for that." he says more to himself them to me. We were now standing outside my class leaning up against the lockers waiting for the bell to ring.

"I'm really sorry I don't remember all of you." I say looking at the ground ashamed that I could forget someone so sweet and caring.

"No, no don't be sorry I like it. It gives me a new chance and I won't mess this one up."

"I'm sure you didn't mess the other one up either."

"Did the doctors say that you are going to get all your memory back?"

"Um, they said I would get it gradually over time. Most of the time it will happen when someone does an action similar to what I have memories of."

"Oh, okay I will come to your class early to bring you to the next class which is lunch. do you want to eat in the field?"

"Okay and I would love to eat in the field I'm not really a fan of big crowds." I go to walk into my class as the bell rings but he pulls me into another hug. He finally lets me go and I walk into class with multiple people staring at me.

The teacher tells me where my seat is so I hobble over to it and get my stuff out. I am getting a few memories from this class but just about things that I learned. None of them help me with finding out more about this Phil Lester.

The class was almost over and I had a very uninteresting class where my mind was filled with a certain pair of blue eyes. With about five more minutes left in the class there is a knock at the door. The teacher stops teaching and walks over slowly and there is the one and only Phil Lester.

The He walks over to me without saying a word to my teacher who is looking at us with her mouth hung open and shock in her eyes. He grabs my bag and helps me out of my chair being careful not to hurt me.

I look around and everybody else has shocked faces. It's just a friend helping a friend calm down people. We walk out of the class and towards the field.

"Thank you for saving me. you are my knight in shining armor!" I say dramatically as I put the back of my hand on my forehead pretending to faint.

"Anytime princess." he says with a wink. I smack his arm while he puts his hands up in defense.

"Anyways, are Chris and Peej going to sit out here too?"

"Um they usually sit inside but I can tell them to sit out here if you want."

"No that's okay I am more then happy to sit here with you."

"Touché." I chuckle at him and sit down under a tree on the far side of the field. There weren't very many people so it was quite. It was peaceful with the leaves on the trees browsing softly in the warm wind. The sun was shining on my tan skin and it felt to good.

Sorta like I was free to do anything. I look over at Phil who was laying next to me but the tree blocked the sun from him. I chuckle about it.

"What's so funny?"

"It's no wonder your so pale you are always in the shade."

"I think that I am very tan, thank you very much."

"You look like a ghost and a piece of paper had a baby."

"Wow Danny that is just rude." When he said 'danny' it was so familiar. Did he used to call me that. I could remember a little.

*flashback*

"What are you going to do Danny boy? You gonna cry to your little fag boyfriend? Like he would care you are worthless." I felt a kick to my stomach but I was crying to much to see who it was. I tried to hold myself together and wipe my eyes. I get a glimpse of blue eyes and then I feel a slap across my cheek.

"S-s-stop." i mumble through the tears.

"Why should I?" I get another kick, them it goes blank.

*end of flashback*

I was shaking and terrified. I'd think this was what a panic attack feels like. My breath was rigid when I looked at him.

"You." was all I could make out. His arm was around me trying to comfort me but it was making it worse.

"You, I trusted you."

"W-what?" He says with his eyes tearing up.

"You hurt me. you were why I was at the bridge. You are why I have to wear pullovers in the summer. You ruined me. How could you."

"I'm so so sorry I never meant to hurt you like that please forgive me. I was confused. I liked you more then a boy is supposed to like a boy. It was a sin and I couldn't handle it. I needed to get my anger out like my father did to me when I told him I'm bi. Please I'm sorry. I know it doesn't mean much but just please I am trying to become a better person and you make me feel happier then I have ever been. I have changed you need to listen to me." I was already up and walking towards the school to find Pj. Why didn't Pj tell me sooner. Was he part of this!? I turn back to Phil.

"It's to late." with that he broke down. Worse then I ever thought possible. I didn't turn back to comfort him. I let him hurt like he hurt me. I gave him my trust, he told me we were friends. How can you lie to someone's face like that and not even give a damn.