How Dare You?

24

I cry and cry until my tearducts run dry. The memories flash through my head like a horrible nightmare. But only, this isn't a nightmare, this is life... My fucked up life.

I eventually get up and go to the bathroom. I let the hot water run into the bath and go to the sink. I look at my reflection in the mirror, my make-up is smudged all over my face, hair that looks like a tornado, the handprint on my neck still very much prominent and last my eyes. My once vibrant eyes hold nothing, nothing... not rage, not sadness, just nothing. I feel numb, i wonder if I'll still be able to feel pain.

I scratch through the drawers until I find it, a razor. Will it hurt when the sharp edge cuts into my skin?

I watch as the blood oozes out of the slot on my wrist. I don't feel it, the pain. I don't feel anything. I want to feel something so I continue cutting, long slits all the way from my wrist to my upper arm but nothing. I stand over the sink and watch my blood go down the drain.

Does Hades feel like this? Is that why he hurts people?

I get into the tub of scorching hot water and scrub. I scrub my skin until it's red, i scrub the feeling of his hands on me away or at least I try to.

I get out of the bath and bandage up my arm before putting on some warm winter pajamas. I lay down on the bed and pray for the sleep to overwhelm me but it doesn't. My thoughts haunt me like a plague, laughing at my impending doom.

I watch the sun peak through the clouds and decide to go downstairs. Hiding away from Hades won't do me any good, it's best if I just do what he says until I find a way to get away from him.

If I run away he'll kill my whole family.

When I get to the kitchen I make myself some hot chocolate and prepare an extra cup, just in case the beast is here. The front door is so far away from my room that I can only hear it if someone slams it closed and i didn't hear anything last night.

I sit on the couch and wrap myself up on a blanket as I watch a movie. It's been a while since I've last enjoyed a movie and there's nothing like a good comedy to cheer me up. I feel a presence behind me and turn around. Hades leans against the wall, staring at me.

"Are you hungry?" I ask, trying to keep it normal as my heart fights against my rib cage.

"No, about yesterday..." he starts.

"I'm sorry I was out of line for cursing at you, it won't happen again. I'm yours, I'll never be anyone else's and i know that now." I say and he sits down next to me with a loud sigh.

"I want to apolo..." he starts again.

"Can we please not talk bout yesterday? Ever?" I ask

"I'm sorry for what I did to you." He says and i nod.

"You're not going to work today?" I ask hoping to stay alone with my thoughts today.

"Is there anything I can do to make you hate me less after yesterday?" He asks and i hold back on rolling my eyes.

"No, it's fine." I say and take a sip of my hot chocolate before holding the cup up for him.
"It's really nice." I say an wiggle my eyebrows which makes him smile but it doesn't reach his eyes. He takes a sip and i continue drinking it.

We watch the rest of the movie in silence and i glance at him. He's wearing nothing but a pair of grey sweatpants.

"Aren't you cold?" I ask

"Not really." He answers and takes the cup of hot chocolate from my hand and sips it before holding the mug to my lips.

"I just don't want you catching a cold, you're probably a big baby when you're sick." I say testing the waters to see his reaction and he bursts out laughing.

"I am, my mother would hate when I got sick." He says and i hear a hint of sadness in his voice.

"Sounded like a smart woman." I say and think for a moment.
"Speaking of smart women, there's something I've been meaning to talk to you about." I say and pause the movie.

"Ask Evangeline." He commands.

"I would like to continue studying so that when you get fed up with me and kick me out, i can at least find a decent job to support my family." I joke.

"I'll never get fed up with you, I'll think about it. After yesterday I have a feeling that you'll try running away because of how afraid you are of me." He says.

"We don't talk about yesterday. It never happened and if I wanted to run away you would just kill someone in my family and I'd be forced to come back. I'm not stupid, i know what you're capable of and i don't have any interest of putting my loves one's lives on the risk for my freedom." I say

"You are a smart girl, I'll speak to a few people and see what i can do." He says and i smile.

"Let's make it a deal. I get to go to college like a normal girl, with no connection to you at all. And I promise not to talk back anymore." I propose and he quirks a brow.

"Sometimes I like when you talk back, how about you go as normal and you forgive me for yesterday. Plus you get to visit your family more often." He adds.

He really feels bad about yesterday.

"Were you really going to rape me?" I ask and my voice breaks at the last two words. My eyes tear up but I swallow the lump growing in my chest.

"I don't know, i was very enraged and it felt like nothing I do is good enough for you so why sit around and wait for something that's never going to happen." He explains.

"You still think that I'll never love you?" I ask

"After yesterday I don't think that you'll ever look at me as more than a kidnapper." He says.

"I have Stockholm syndrome remember? So doesn't me talking to you as if nothing happened yesterday mean something?" I ask and chuckle at just how crazy I sound.
"There's something seriously wrong with me." I say and only now realize that the thing I was making fun of all this time is true.

I really have Stockholm syndrome.

I'm in love with my captor.

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