It Be Like That Sometimes

Chapter 20

Ezra's POV

Am I the only one who feels the pastor is talking to me when I show up to church after a long ass—I mean long ole time. I made Ray come with me because he needed it just as much as I did. Today I feel like he is talking to me...

"Jesus said (in Matthew 6:9, 12), "Pray like this: 'Our Father who art in heaven . . . forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.'" Then in verses 14–15 he explains why he taught us to pray this way: "For if you forgive men for their transgressions, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men, then your Father will not forgive your transgressions."

If we hold fast to an unforgiving spirit, we will not be forgiven by God. If we continue on in that way, then we will not go to heaven, because heaven is the dwelling place of forgiven people." 

Throughout the entire sermon all you heard was "Preach pastor. Take your time. Amen. You say that!" Was this God trying to tell me to forgive my momma which I have a very small chance that I can do. Then when I thought church was over the choir came out. Pastor Brown said, " Lets hear one last selection from the choir and we gone get outta hear." Then this ugly ass old woman gone say, "Take your time pastor." She look like she barely has time left.

The choir stood up and I couldn't believe it but Rob was up there and he was walking to the mic. Me and Ray looked at each other back at the choir then back at each other. Ray mouthed "What the fuck?" And I accidentally said out loud "Nigga!" Everybody by us start looking and I gave them that yall looking the wrong way face.

Pastor Brown started talking before he started singing, "Brother Rob joined our choir last week after accepting Christ through Baptism." You could hear several Amen and Hallelujah. Me and Ray looked at each other again. Today he will lead our choir. Then the church band began playing a soft beat.

Rob eyes connected with us and he put his head down but not in embarrassment it was sorrow. Then he began singing.

"I give myself away

I give myself away

So You can use me

I give myself away

I give myself away

So You can use me

Here I am

Here I stand

Lord, my life is in your hands

Lord, I'm longing to see

Your desires revealed in me"

KeKe's POV

"Where the hell you been girl!" Asia yelled through the phone. Ieen gone lie, I have been a lil M.I.A. lately. "My bad girl I just been going through some stuff lately." "Have you seen Yanna or Ezra? Anybody" Truth is I have been avoiding everybody since Yanna's accident. I know it's wrong because Ezra needs me but I need him. "Can we chill later on, I have to tell you guys something anyway?" "How about tomorrow? Sound like you need to spill some tea." She sighed and agreed then we hung up and I searched through my phone to find My Husband. I had so many missed calls and unread text messages and my face lit up.

*RING* The first ring had just finished and he picked up panting, "Are you ok baby? Where you been? You got yo space? I'm coming home now!" And he hung up. I couldn't do anything but laugh because he sounded like he was missing something. I decided to go take a long hot bath but that bath was cut short.

I instantly started feeling the worst damn pains in my life. I felt like my cycle was coming down but they've been a little off lately because of my birth control. I had just finished a workout and I thought that's what it was but all I remember is blurry vision, blood, and Ezra crying...