Diαмσиd Cяσw

𝐀𝐲𝐥𝐚 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐧

Faith is one of the most important virtues of the human being that makes you believe in a greater good in a day when everything can be better where the light of the East illuminates your paths, when corrupted it means the death of the soul and only the existence of a being without pathless identity in search of nothingness deceived by his disturbed and manipulated ego. Nathan Crowther was just a being full of the now, upset and manipulated by a flawed system. If words could describe the state of my soul, maybe I wouldn't spend my days in exile inside myself. I wouldn't even sink in the tide of pain I carry in my chest, however, it's impossible to describe how much it hurts: The pain of living what you are. Now that the first phase of the enlistment was over and I had become victorious under the daughters of Nigrum, I found myself in a leaky boat from which I would probably drown; I only hoped to save myself in time. After the presentation I returned home, the first phase was completed, I would enter the second in a few days. The documents about the next challenge had arrived, but I didn't pay attention to the papers; that cold and dense look of Nathan Crowther haunted me for a good part of the week, I dreamed about those irises twice and woke up sweating due to the nightmare, in the end the prince ended up entering my thoughts in the form of a nightmare. That afternoon I would go hunting with Blacke, my friend patiently waiting in front of my house. As soon as I organized my bow and daggers I went out watching the sky that had its dense gray tones as usual, I stopped beside him who watched as concentrated as I did.
________ It's so beautiful... - I spoke in a whispered tone, he nodded at me, however he said nothing, we started walking silently and I don't know for sure that started to bother me, Blacke is the speaker, no I! I frowned then stopped walking abruptly and he took three more steps until he stopped and turned to face me.
________ Why did he stop? - He questioned looking at me.
________ What's wrong with you? My right eyebrow rose in its usual curious and puzzled way.
________ Nothing, I'm just.. tired.. didn't sleep well last night.. that's it.. - He passed, Blacke was lying to me, he always takes breaks when he lies. ________ You are lying to me. - I said irritably.
________ I'm not.. - He modified his lip and then I let out a sigh.
________ I know you're Blacke, I know you; I know when you lie to me! - I exclaimed, already losing patience - Why don't you tell me the truth? He ran a hand through his night-dark hair and then lifted his irises to mine.
________ I was just thinking that today might be the last week we hunt together and that makes me very unhappy Ayla.. - I understood his thought.
________ That won't happen Blacke, I'll return to Nigrum, home don't have to worry. - I stated serenely, he breathed however he didn't seem relieved somehow he was nervous and I didn't understand why - He's just afraid of losing me.. but understand, that won't happen.. - I approached and then my hand she rested on his shoulder in an affectionate way.
________ What if I say I don't want to see you near those princes? That this is killing me.. Please give up.. - I swallowed a cake that stopped in my throat, something in those words bothered me in a warm way.
_________ I need to stay at least until the third phase Blacke promised this to my family is for them.. - He nodded in agreement.
_________ I don't think I'll be able to go hunting today.. - I frowned, however I understood his feelings.
_________ All right, I'll go alone .. - I smiled slightly at him and then let go of his shoulder I took three steps however Blacke held my wrist which made me look up to his, my face was with an unknown in my irises, for a few seconds I drew air into my lungs; he wouldn't do that.. And then he did, Blacke put his lips on mine for a few seconds that were enough to steal all the air from my lungs, I was static; when he pulled away his eyes stared into mine with a different glow. Somehow everything there changed in a matter of brief moments, he smiled weakly and then let go of my wrist. ________ I just wanted to do this before I don't see you anymore.. I... - He stopped talking and then lowered his face to the ground, whispering he said goodbye - I hope you come back so I can say everything I'm really sorry for you, but I was too much of a coward to show it before. As soon as Blacke shut up, he left quickly, his tall and athletic body, now smaller, his brisk walk was fast, and me?! I stood there for so long that I even lost the notion that I was in the middle of the asphalt, I blinked back to reality when a car horn made me walk to the sidewalk, it was a lot to process in such a short time, I went back to House; my brother's appraising eyes made me stop in the middle of the stairs, he had the papers in his hand and his expression was one of extreme concern.
_________ You need to get ready Ayla! - He announced making me forget Blacke for a few seconds.
_________ Like this? - I question frowning the brow.
_________ In this next phase, lives will be in your hands... - At the same time I grabbed the paper from his hand, started reading frantically and honestly I found myself completely screwed! Really screwed up!