Our Special Journey

6. A Delicate Turning Point

After stopping by a park near my home, paced the remained path thoughtfully. My hands were in my pockets while thinking about the life pragmatically. A cool breeze chilled my face. It was autumn with leaves in red, yellow, orange and brown colors everywhere. In my opinion, spring and autumn are the seasons for the poems and sonnets. We rhyme with the seasons, but these two can make us writers and lyricists.

I was walking on the autumn leaves with a feeling of watching our meetings and journey's fall with my own eyes. Were these leaves reflecting the reality of my gut feeling as the true signs? Exactly, this scene was creating the peculiar conditions of the autumn leaves as well as our journey's fall.

Three days passed and we met at a church. I don't mention the name of the church because it's a private matter. You can fancy any church that you like. We arrived at a time when no one could be seen there. Silence was the only sound that could be heard there. Personally, I think it's nice when you are in a massive structure or a building with the possibility of being alone there to hear your own voice echoing everywhere. I don't know the scientific reason for it, but it's totally a nice experience. By the way, I know this actual fact that my likes are childish in some ways!

I sat in silence waiting for him to say something. He closed his eyes and breathed deeply. It seemed I could feel an unpleasant sensation of heaviness in his chest. Thus, I changed my mind and broke the silence with a shaking tone in my voice. "You better stay here alone. I leave. Just focus on the power of faith. This place is magical. You can pray, talk to God, think about your feelings, your life and the future. Put all the limitations and barriers aside. You can be limitless here, and it's the only reason why I call here a magical place."
"Thank you. Your helps mean a lot to me. I wished that I could ask you to stay, but I find it difficult to voice it. I don't want you to see me in difficult and challenging states of mind and feelings here. Thank you again. I'll focus on the things that you reflected so well."
"Have faith in yourself. You know you can call me if you need me. I'll go home. See you later."
"I'm grateful for having you in my life. Thank you. See you later."
"Take care."
"Take care."

It could be seen how he was encountering an emotional and delicate turning point. He needed to be alone with his sentiments and thoughts. There are significant times when we have a feeling of being better off alone without anyone around us. It means we need to find our peace of mind and inner harmony by ourselves. For instance, a peaceful place or environment that enables us to find our utmost inner self resolution.

I left the church with mixed feelings along with being distressed about him as well. However, I knew this occasion could possibly light up a beam in his heart and mind just like a shining star in his life's space. I admit that there were times when I was sad and heartbroken looking at the sky with eyes full of tears. Those times can potentially create a painful and tragic concept or paradigm. But keeping our heads held up high leads us to see beautiful points and factors in days and nights. It feels like when you change your perspective, you'll see different things that can bring you more resolutions and hopes to your heart and life. It means when you are suffering and in pain, you'll discover to see the whole concept as a learning process. In other words, we learn to learn more and grow evermore in dynamic and cognitive process and mechanism.