Our Special Journey

15. Thoughts In My Head

It was 8:00 a.m. when I woke up. I noticed a letter on the table near the bed. It seemed Jane had left for work when I was asleep. I sat on the edge of the bed and after a pause, picked the letter up and started reading it.

"Dear Aurora,

You were sleeping so beautifully that I didn't want to wake you up. I must go to work. Will be in touch for the appointment and required preparation around 10 a.m. Have a good day, my Lilo. If you felt something unusual during the day, please call me right away. Take care, my bestie. :) ♥"

She has a kind heart and a very gentle and pure soul. I can call her a beautiful angel. You know, it's very heartwarming when you have someone being so kind and pure in your life. Indeed, I am grateful and happy for having her in my life. In my heart, I say:

'Thank you, my dear God, for this beautiful and respectful friendship.'

Simply, I can admit that we can't deny the fact that we worship this friendship always and forever.

After that, I went to the hall to check my phone for new calls or texts. Suddenly, I heard a notification sound informing me about new incoming text messages. I was surprised about this simultaneous and coincidence occurrence. The new message was from him asking how I was doing. Does he have a sixth sense or a special intuition? I don't know. I replied that everything was alright and there was nothing to be worried about.

I made breakfast and drank my morning coffee. Everything seemed too relaxing, and I was not sure whether it was normal or not. Usually, this type of relaxing and peaceful moments lead me to the storms ahead. Have you heard the calm before the storm?!

My phone rang and it was him, again.

'Hello!'

"Hello! How are you?"

'Fine, thanks. And you?'

"Fine, thank you. Are you free?"

'Yes.'

"Great. Just wanted to make sure that you're fine and everything is ok with you. I didn't sleep well last night. In fact, I couldn't sleep because I was worried about you."

'I'm fine. Don't worry. My friend stayed with me last night. Did you talk to your ex-wife?'

"Not yet. I'm gonna talk to her today at noon. You know, talking to her is kind of nerve-racking. Conversation about her will for entering your apartment tenses me up. In fact, it makes me panic! I guess it'll be a hell for me. But it's inevitable and we need to talk."

'I understand but as you said it's inevitable. Please make sure that the incident won't happen, again. I need to be reassured about it.'

"I get it. I'll make sure that it won't happen again. I'm sorry. "

'Please inform me about the result. If you think she can't stay away from my apartment and privacy, please tell me right away. It's vital to know it and consider a reliable solution.'

"Sure. You're right. I will inform you after I talked to her."

'Great. Thank you.'

"Excuse me, I've to go. Will call you later."

'Ok.'

"Have a good day."

'Thanks. Have a good day.'

I feel something weird about him. I don't know why but it seems he is hiding something from me or trying to hide something from me in the best way possible. It makes me feel uncomfortable because it delivers the sign of trust issues. However, it is just a blurry and fuzzy thought. Then, I must be focused on the project and the appointment that we are going to have. This mindset is much more sensible and intelligible.

It was 10 a.m. and a new text popped up on my phone screen. It was from Jane.

"Hey gorgeous! What's up?" I read the message and smiled. Then, I replied:

'Hey lovely beauty! Nothing particular. How are you doing?'

"Fine, thanks. I'm going to be off around 15:00. We can schedule a meeting around 15:30. Is it good?"

'Absolutely good. 15:30 at my apartment. Is it ok with you?'

"Absolutely ok with me. :)"

'Great. :) See you.'

"See you. Take care."

'Take care.'

I looked at my watch to plan for the few hours ahead. I knew time would pass quickly without noticing its footsteps leaving me more and more. Sometimes, this feature of time passing scares me. Because it feels like we are limited and locked in our bubbles while time is counting for more. We run but we find ourselves in a situation feeling like running out of time. How can we manage these encounters and struggles productively and effectively?
Sometimes, I find it difficult to find the best answer and solution in this regard. However, I'll do my best to be precise and plan accurately as much as possible.

In my opinion, life embraces so many factors and we live under the light of how we are potentially able to handle the obstacles by being honest and open to ourselves and the others. It's so simple but most of the human beings find doing simple things boring or stupid. However, I feel different and live simply without surrounding myself with these drained and impoverished views and outlooks. In fact, simplicity and being natural are two key parts of my life and the way I live.

Surely, being simple and natural lead you to a world that vast your mind and insight. I aways thank God for giving me this opportunity, potential, hope, and prospect to think like this, live like this, and love like this.

With love, ❤️🌹