Misunderstood

Choices

Malia💬
Kai comforted me the whole night. Holding me tightly in his arms. I liked it. I liked the warm feeling he gives me when he pulls me towards his chest. I liked the soft touch of his hands on my back. I liked how he made me feel like the safest girl in the world. I had fallen asleep in his arms that night. I woken up before him. His grip was still firm on me. It turns out we were spooning the whole night. I tried to break free but it wasn't working. I looked back at Kai, sleeping like a baby. I gave up on trying to loosen his grip and just stayed there wrapped in his arms like I was his stuff animal. Kai finally woke up after several hours of slumber. "Hey" he whispered. His morning voice made me weak, it was so sexy. "Hi" I said awkwardly. "Are you okay?" He asked with concern. "Yeah" I mumbled. Kai got off the bed and headed towards the bathroom. "Kai?" I stopped him before he can enter the bathroom. "Yes?" He asked. "Thanks" I murmured. "For what?" He said like he already knew the answer. "For helping with.. My dream I guess". I didn't know what to really call what had happened yesterday. It was all so confusing. "No problem. You know.." Kai walked back to the bed and sat down next to me. "I would have dreams like the one you had last night" he continued. "What do you mean?" I am pretty sure an average person doesn't have dreams about about turning into a wolf and killing an innocent little boy. But yet again Kai Parker isn't your average person so. "Well you see ever since I merged with Luke I got some of his traits as you know. Well since then I been having dreams about me killing innocent people and actually feeling guilty about it. I know, crazy right?". I stared at Kai with disgust. How the hell can he say that. "I don't get you Kai!" I yelled. "What?" He asked. "How can you NOT feel guilty about taking someone's life away? A person that had a family and friends." I got off the bed and walked back in forth pacing around the room. Gripping my hair. It's like all the anger I had towards Kai came bursting out of me like a bomb. I stopped for a moment and looked at Kai. "How can you be so nice to me and careing and then go back to a sociopath in a minute?" I shouted at Kai. "Because you drive me crazy!" Kai yelled back at me. This time standing off from the bed. "How do I drive you crazy!!". This is unbelievable how am I driving him crazy. Is he on drugs or something. "You switch my ways Malia. You make me a person I don't want to be!" The scene was getting more intense by the minute. "And what type a person would that be?!" I cried. "A good one okay. I don't want to be good. I don't want to feel guilt. And I don't want to feel love!!". he hollered. Kai and I locked eyes. Both of us practically painting from the heated argument we had just had. Did Kai just say he loved me? No, I must of heard wrong I thought to myself. I just realized how close me and kai was together. I can feel the tension growing between us. Before I can even think about anything Kai pressed his lips against mine. And the weird thing was that I didn't pull away. The kiss was so passionate and long. I gripped his soft black hair. He moved his hands down my back. I pulled back placing my hands on his chest. I bowed my head down. "I can't do this" I whispered. "What?" Kai asked but I didn't bother to answer. I walked out the room. I needed time to think about this.
A/N-well that just happened😂 I am so sorry I haven't updated in like a year. I just didn't feel inspired:(