Asterism

45. big itch

***4 chapter update! Start at chapter 45 :) ***

Hello, my lovely readers. I know that it has been an EXTREMELY, EXTRORDINARILY long time since a chapter update, and for that I am genuinely sorry. As a reader myself, when I'm into a book all I want is more of it, and I understand all of your positions, for those who enjoy my writing. It's my passion, but ultimately, we live in a very expensive world right now, and I have to prioritize my jobs, my bills, and my social life above writing for the sake of my mental and physical health. I just struggle with the time to really sit down and be in the right headspace with my characters, and I refuse to put out anything half-ass, that doesn't truly come from that creative side of my brain in its prime. It's hard to feel creative in a world like this, where there is so much injustice and cruelty, and escaping into this world can sometimes be detrimental for me because going back into the real one, feels upsetting when there is so much out of my control. I can't write happy endings into existance, I can't type out better fates for those I care about.

The good news is I've found him guys...I've found MY AIDEN. He really is so special, and I am saying this as a reminder to never settle for anything less than you deserve in a relationship. Unconditional love. A cheerleader. A nurturer. A man willing to grow with you, to constantly improve himself. A romantic, a sweetheart, willing to move a mountain for you if you ask. And no, my boyfriend is not the unattainable perfection that exists in romance novels, because that's just not real. We are all humans with flaws, but this human experience, and human love, is what we are supposed to make our focus, not these fictional worlds.

I love writing Aiden and Marley's story, but it's important I love myself and my own life more. I am 25 years old, at a place where I'm saving for a future, trying to experience as much as I can while I'm young and spry, as they say, since life is so short.

But still here I am with chapters, even though it took a long time they were written with the same passion that I have always had, and will always have with writing. This series, and these characters, will get the ending they deserve. I promise. But I am not a writer that can throw out several books in a year and handle that mentally; my creativity is delicate and I have to take care of it for it to want to take care of me. That's just the way it is, and I have learned to accept it.

I hope you can all understand. But this hobby of mine is really great to get into when I am able to, and I feel accomplished with what I'm putting out today! I'm just happy if even one person votes, or comments, or engages with me on this platform on my stories. And I'm excited for you to see these next four very busy chapters to come!

Thank you for all the support you give me in the meantime. I always do my best to update as soon as I can. I can't promise that I'll have an update out in a week, but that's my current goal. I'm really going to try.

I hope you enjoy :)

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Aiden's POV

THESE days, all I think about is burying my face between my girlfriend's thighs.

Doesn't exactly make for a star student or football player.

In fact, all my other priorities feel like a hilarious waste of time. Swallowing down the anger every time I'm shoved a little too hard in the locker rooms, sitting through snooze-fest lectures, reminding my flirting peers in my study groups that I have a girlfriend, working on my piles of homework until my vision blurs...suddenly, all of that is far less enjoyable in comparison to eating out Marley Hoover.

Suddenly, all of that has merely become an...interruption, to what I really want to be doing 24/7.

So has going to Target, apparently.