Never Alone

26. Summer (Year 5)

TW: Sexual assault, death, Drug use mention

The end of the year was eventful, to say the least. I was approached by Professor Dumbledore, Professor Snape, Madam Maxine, and Mrs. Delacour as I was released from the hospital wing. "Ah, Dei." Mrs. Delacour said, hugging me "it would mean a lot if you came to France with us for Fleur's memorial."

"Dumbly-dore told me you blame yourself for her death, I am here to tell you that no one blames you, ma cherie." Madam Maxine spoke next.

"I tried to tell her not to touch the cup. She insisted that she go with me if it was as dangerous as I said." I told them softly. "If I had been more persistent she would still be here." I have tears in my eyes as I talk.

"I have known Fleur her entire life. She always viewed you like her little sister as well, she did for you what she would have done if it was her own little sister." Mrs. Delacour reassured me, as my mother walked up to us.

"Deidamia, I think you should go. It will be good for you to say goodbye properly, I don't want you to destroy your life by blaming yourself." My mother said, as she hugged me tight.

"Fine. I'll go. Let me just say goodbye to my friends here." I say to them, when they nod I head into the Great Hall to talk to my friends.

"Hey Draco, Mattheo, Enzo, Blaise, and Theo. I came to say goodbye. Mum and everyone thinks going to her memorial will be good for me. I feel like I'll be out of place because I still blame myself for her death." I tell them.

"When do you leave?" Mattheo asked.

"I leave after the closing ceremony, I'll be returning to Beauxbatons for a few days then returning to the manor."

"Love, it was not your fault." Draco said as he pulled me into a tight hug. "I will make sure that Madame Maxine has your calming draught."

"Thanks, I should go talk to Cedric and Potter." I say as I walk away. "Cedric, hello." I say my voice is flat and professional.

"Deidamia, hello, so glad to see you out of the hospital wing. Harry was telling me what happened. I am so sorry that you had that happen to you."

"The cruciatus curse wasn't the worst pain I felt that day. I don't know if I ever told you how many times I have dealt with that curse. 26 times now. I am used to pain, just not this emotional pain. I truly blame myself for her death. Why did I not warn her like I warned you?" I say as tears start to flow down my face causing Harry to pull me into a hug.

"Deidamia, I never knew it was that bad. I still am on board with our plan to take him down from the inside. I was there with you as well, you can't blame yourself. She was your best friend and older than us so of course she went to protect you. She loved you, that was obvious to everyone." Harry said, releasing me from the hug. I walked back to the Slytherin table and sat scrunched up on the bench, causing Theo to pull me close to him.

"Dei, you got this little sister, I mean I know you feel like everything is your fault, a curse of your abilities, just know that no one blames you, please stop blaming yourself, it's going to be okay."

"Welcome everyone to the end of another year. The Triwizard Tournament has come to a close, the winner of this year's tournament is Miss Deidamia Nott, from Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. Now it is time to award the Hogwarts house cup. In fourth place with 300 points we have Ravenclaw. In third place with 375 points we have Gryffindor, in second place with 400 points we have Hufflepuff, and in first place with 444 points we have Slytherin. Congratulations students on another successful year, as for the end of year exams, they have been cancelled. Enjoy your summer holidays." Dumbledore closed the ceremony, all of the Slytherins cheered, happy we took the house cup. I stayed seated and clapped until we were dismissed. Once dismissed I asked Theo, "Can you pack up my stuff and bring it home for me Theo? I won't be back beforehand, Madame maxine wants me to stay a couple weeks with Mrs. Delacour." He nods and I run to catch up to the Beauxbatons students. "I'm ready Madame Maxine, are you sure the others won't mind me coming with you?"