Never Alone

30. Lines (Year 5)

13 October 1995

Dear Diary,

It's been a few months since school started, Umbitch keeps plastering more and more rules everywhere. She is really testing my patience, but I don't dare act out. I have many first years that come to me for comfort because other houses bully them, if I could fight them and not get in trouble I would. I keep reliving what my father did to me, I don't want to be touched so for the past couple months I haven't even let my brother hug me. Harry approached me and my group to talk to us about a group he is forming called "Dumbledore's army." We talked about how we could help and just like that an opportunity fell onto our laps.

I ended up closing the journal after enchanting the entry.

"Hey Harry, wait up." I called as he was walking away to Hogsmeade.

"Hey Deidamia, what's up?"

"So I remember you guys talking about your special training sessions, well to keep up the facade since I know it may be hard for others to trust us I have an idea, and before you go off the handle hear out everything okay." He nodded so I continued, "Okay so you know how Umbitch is putting together an inquisitor squad?" Again he nodded "What if my group joined and purposely led Crabbe, Goyle, Pansy and filch on a wild goose chase. We will not rat you out but I would have to let the other five know. Trust me they are not going to be the ones to betray your trust. They want Dipshit dead just as much as you guys. There is a spare room off to the side of Slytherin Common room that I could go in there with my group and train them on advanced magic as well if you'd like."

"Okay Deidamia, I get what you are saying, if she finds us and you are with her I will be pissed."

"I know, it won't be us if she somehow finds you." He went to give me a hug and I shoved him away instinctively.

"What was that about Deidamia?" His tone was showing that he couldn't decide between anger and hurt.

"I - I'm sorry, I just rather not be touched. Sorry." I say quickly and mentally kicking myself.

"Did something happen over the summer?"

"Uhhh no, nothing happened. I'm fine. I just don't want to be touched, I don't even let my brother right now either. I gotta go back to the other's again. I am sorry if I hurt your feelings." With that I turned and ran back to the castle, I got back to the castle and started to gasp for air. I was approached by Ron and Enzo, they both reached their hands out to me, causing me to back up and sprint away, I didn't care if I could breathe or not.

Enzo's POV

I was talking with Ron about Harry's group's plans and saw Deidamia come running as fast as she could to the castle. She has been acting weird the past couple months, and I am starting to worry. She stopped by the wall gasping for air, causing me to tell Ron "Help me with her, she gets like this before she drops." I told him and we both ran towards her and reached out to her. I was not expecting her to back up and sprint away, "What do you think is going on with her?" I asked Ron.

"Hell if I know, I don't know anything going on with her. Maybe my brothers do, we should ask them." With that we ran to get Fred and George.

"Fred, George, do either of you guys know why Deidamia won't come near anyone or let us help her when she is struggling. Like we saw her gasping for air by the doors to the courtyard earlier and we ran to help her but the minute we reached out she backed up and ran away." I asked them calmly.

"Mate, do you know what she went through this summer?" Fred spoke up first.

"She's been through things that would break you and everyone else, to be honest if what happened to her happened to our sister we would think she is reliving the events." George finished for Fred.