I've been thinking of the past, all the bad thing, I have Ben, and I love him and Nick, I just want last words. No one can tell me how to feel or tell me what to do, but they can try and make me feel better, half the timne it doesnt work. But with this, I just don't know what to say I've been thinking about how my heart feels, and my brain is overwhellmed, with all of these thought. Most of them are horrible thoughts... I miss my old self. But everyone changes thats life, I just I could still be the old me, sometimes. Ben I love him, just nick, my pain, i want to tell him how i feel, but no one will listen. Excpessially him. I want him to know how I feel. That baby is in God's hands.. when it should be in mine, I should of let that baby grow and be someone! Just like I had the chance, I was supposed to be aborted, but I wasnt, i was given the chance to live and be born.
Everything happends for a reason, all my past is different. My future will be different too. Everyone has a different perspective of everyone, mine for God.. is that beautiful wonderful hearted girl... who is a little different.
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