My Chilhood Stalker

Chapter 29: Worthless

Eugene's POV

         I'm not giving up on him. I know he's mad and hurt. It's my fault for not telling him the truth. Because of that.. I might lose him.. again. I know he's guilty about what he did to me. I know it's not his intention. I know he's sorry.

I'm going to Chad Oppa's boarding house. I can't reach his phone. Maybe he turned it off intentionally. I looked at the mirror and saw a different person. I'm all glammed up today. To impress him,maybe?

I get on my way to his boarding house.. He's roommate with Dio. The landlady know me so I can just come in as long as it's not curfew time. I knocked at their room. It takes a while before Chad Oppa opened it. He's looking at me like I'm just nothing. Didn't he notice my effort to look pretty today?

"Oppa.. Why aren't you answering your phone? " I try to smile. I'm having a mental block right now.

"What are you doing here?" He said in a low and cold tone. I can feel his anger. His words pierced my heart. My eyes became teary.

"Go home. I have no time for you." He's about to close the door but I stop him. My fingers got caught by the door and it hurts so bad.

"Aw!!" I exclaimed. My tears voluntarily flow.

"Fuck!" He grabs my hand and look at it . He looked angry but I know that he's worried.

"I said go home!!! Now!!" I just looked at him.

"I don't want to see you anymore, Eugene. We're done."

"No! Why don't you just let me explain?!" I'm getting angry because of the treatment he's showing me. Tears fall hard.

"Explain what?! The fact that you let him kiss you is enough to end us!"

"I didn't let him!"

"Oh come on, Eugene! Fuck that!! I will never let you explain. You'll just lie again. You'll just hurt me again. And I will not let that happen again. I will not let myself get hurt this bad again." Then his tears flow.

"Oppa.. Please."

Then he closes the door. As soon as he closed the door, my heart breaks into pieces. I should give him time for himself. I know he'll gonna miss me. I know.

Bammy's POV

It's been a month since Chad Oppa and Eugene's break up. Oppa is grumpy everyday. He didn't eat lunch and go home straight after class. I am worried, Eugene too. Eugene asks about him everyday. I can feel her pain cause she's my friend now. She always smile whenever I'm with her but I know that she's just pretending to be alright. Sometimes she's preoccupied. I know she thinks about Chad all the time.

Class ended and I know Chad will just go out as soon as possible so I go after him.

"Oppa. Are you going home?" He just nodd while walking fast.

"Oppa. Slow down! I am going with you." I said and he slows down.

"Are you avoiding everyone?" I looked at his face and his jaw tightened.

"What do you want?" I was alarmed by his sudden question.

"Ahhh... Mmmmm..." I don't know how to start my question.

"Do you want to be my girlfriend again?" He said as he looks at me coldly. I never thought he'd treat me this low. So I slap him.

"I am Eugene's friend now. Don't you think you're being too much an asshole? Even though I liked you before, it doesn't mean I'm happy to see my friend hurting. In fact, I thought we're friends. I guess I'm wrong." To my surprise.. he grab my arm.

"I'm sorry. I guess I just wanted to be alone."

"It's alright. I understand where you're coming. I just wanted to tell you that you should hear Eugene out. You should-"

"Stop. I don't want to hear her name."

"But -"

"I said STOP!!" I was startled. People around us were mumbling and looking at me. I run away out of embarrassment. Oppa has changed.

Eugene's POV

There's a program here at the gym. Everybody is here. It is to celebrate the foundation day. I saw my classmates at the other side of the gym but I can't go there because it's too crowded. I just sit here near the entrance since there are available seats left here. I look at the person beside me and saw that he's one of Chad Oppa's classmate. I looked up a little and I saw Oppa. He looks not interested to the program. His eyes is gloomy and he's pale. I heard from Bammy that he's not taking lunch everyday. It hurts me more. He looked at my direction and stayed in my eyes for a while. His eyes were full of longing but then he looked away. His expression darkened. I looked down because my tears are starting to fill my eyes again. I miss him so bad. I wanted to hug him, kiss him. I look at his spot and he's not there anymore. I look at the exit and saw him gets out. I followed him and I saw him goes into their room. The gymnasium is close to their department building. I went to their floor and when I'm close to their room, he goes out of it with his bag. He looks at me. His eyes were just looking at me while walking towards my direction.

"Chad Oppa.. I-" I didn't finish what I'm about to say because he hugs me tight. Full of longing. His breath gets deeper. I just close my eyes and hugs him back. It feels like going home after a long time.

"Why did you hurt me so bad? Now, I don't know how to forgive you even if I want to." He said while hugging me. I can't find a word to say. He will not hear me out anyway. He's about to let go of himself from me but I wanted to hug him a little bit more. He just let me.

"Even if we hug, it felt worthless. I can't feel anything anymore." There. He stabbed me again. When I look at him, he's not staring at me. His eyes became cold again and he walks away. My tears flows down hard again. He don't love me anymore? My breath get heavier and my tears flow hard. I'm in deep pain right now. I run towards the restroom and cried for a moment. Then I forced myself to stop. As soon as I open the cubicle.. Chad was in front of it. He pushed me inside the cubicle and kissed me hungrily. I kissed him as much intensity.. as much as I miss him. I felt him caressing the side of my breast. Why do I have this feeling like I want him to touch my chest. It's getting hot and our breath gets heavier. Then he softly kiss me..

"That's what you get for entering a male's restroom." He said when he cut our kiss. I feel my face is getting red. It's embarrassing.

"Now.. get out." He said coldly.  I walks out of the restroom and wait for him outside.

As soon as he gets out..

"Oppa, does that kiss means we're alright?" He just stare at me.

"No. It has no meaning. I didn't even feel anything. I think I just feel like I want to kiss a girl inside a cubicle. I mean.. how hot is that." As soon as he said that. I push and slap him.

"I hate you!!" Then I run away.

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