TOUCH [ seongjoong ]

taste

"because it's about you hongjoong"

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his expression was the most confused i have ever seen him. 

"me?" he started. i could only nod.  i looked down at my fingers. "its nothing you did wrong joong don't worry." i reassured knowing what he was thinking. "then tell me please" he was nearly begging. tears tried to fall as i looked up at him.

 "i can't lose you" the tears sucessfully escaped this time. they stung but they wouldn't stop. he pulled me in close into an embrace and tried to soothe me. 

"you could never lose me hwa. not even if you tried." i smiled at the thought and pulled away.

 he was right. hongjoong wasn't going anywhere. if he rejected me he would still be here by my side. 

"hongjoong..." i started. i was really gonna say it. i am going to tell him because i know it'll all turn out alright. "yes hwa?"

"i like you. like more than a friend. i like you so much and it hurts so bad. every little touch and every smile makes it hurt so much worse. i'm so scared of your response right now you have no idea. i tried to distance myself from you because it hurts to be around you. i just didn't want to lose you so i tried keeping it from you but i can't keep anything from you. its too hard..." 

i was breaking down again. the tears stopped earlier but they were back like always. they always came back. i looked down at my hands. i was so scared to look up.

"hwa..." i could feel his fingers under my chin as he pushed me to look at him. i tried to turn away but he kept me there, not letting me look away. he started leaning closer. i thought i was imagining it at first but our faces were centimeters apart now. finally he closed the distance. 

it may sound cringey but i swear there were sparks. it's as if there were fireworks in our shared dorm. our lips moved together like they were made to be pressed against one another. it felt as if everything clicked in that moment. all the weight lifted off my shoulders and relief hit me. it felt like i was flying. 

after a moment we pulled away and pressed our foreheads together. 

"i like you too hwa."

the biggest smile formed on my face as he pressed our lips together again. everything was perfect. i never wanted that moment to end. 

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we laid in his bed with our bodies pressed together. holding each other in an embrace that neither of us wanted to pull away from. 

i pulled him into another sweet kiss. one that was so full of love. the taste of his lips on mine was something i could never get tired of. 

"you're so beautiful hwa." hongjoong said after we both pulled away. a red tint painting my cheeks that i no longer had to hide. everything was perfect. i was here in his arms.

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"will you be my boyfriend seonghwa?"  the shorter asked as we sat outside staring at nothing but the sunset. the pink and orange sky slowly fading into darkness. "of course ill be your boyfriend hongjoong." i smiled with my response. nothing has ever felt better. he pulled me into an embrace before kissing me. a kiss with no sexual intentions behind it. just pure love and passion. sitting here watching the sunset with my new boyfriend kim hongjoong. 

surrounded by his touch.

touch.

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