Never Ending Youth {Queen Ravenna / Reader}

08:

A few days pass. Ravenna and I hardly speak.

"Y/n, please talk to me." I hear from outside my bedroom door. I sigh. "What do you want, Ravenna?" I ask. "Can I come in?" she asks. I walk over to the door and open it. She smiles at me. "What." I say. Her smile drops. "I want to talk to you." she tells me. "About?" I question. "Snow White." she replies. I roll my eyes. "I don't want to hear it. Handle her however you'd like." I say coldly. "Please don't be like that." Ravenna tells me. I scoff. "I don't care what you do with her anymore, Ravenna. Just go."

I shut the door in her face. A familiar feeling of hatred seeps into my body. "Y/n, Y/n please." Ravenna begs. I take a deep breath and walk over to the seat by the fire.

The seat seems to be my safe space, rather than the cold castle gardens. "Y/n." Ravenna tries again. I ignore her. The sound of foot steps leave down the hall shortly after. I sit with my thoughts until there is a knock at my door. "My Lady, dinner." a Maid says. I walk over to the door, the previously unknown feeling of hunger biting at my stomach. I open the door to the Maid who is holding a tray of steaming food. "Thank you, Rosie. Muchly appreciated." I say with a smile. I take the food from her. She nods, then curtsies.

The next morning I make my way to Ravenna. "Y/n, hel-" she starts. "I want to see Snow White." I demand. She frowns. "Why?" she questions. "It doesn't concern you." I answer. She shakes her head. "I can't let you do that." she tells me. I glare at her. She sighs. "You know what? Fine. Guards, take Lady Y/n to see Snow White." she says loudly.

I follow the guards out of the room. "Do I not get a 'thank you'?" Ravenna asks. "No." I reply simply.

The guards lead me down a winding stairway. "Right this way, My Lady." one of them says. I don't reply. They lead me through the cellars Faye and the other women were in, and down another flight of stairs.

One guard stops at a door while the other unlocks it. They push it open. I take a breath and enter.

A young woman laying on a small bed catches my eye. She notices me then sits upright. I walk over to her slowly. "Who are you?" she asks, a little fear in her voice. "Y/n Briar, your highness." I say. A shocked look plagues her face. "You're her girlfriend." she tells me. I stop. I open my mouth to say something but nothing comes out. "Aren't you?" she adds. I'm not sure what to say so I don't reply.

"What're you doing down here?" she asks. "May I?" I ask, gesturing to the bed. The young princess hesitates, but eventually nods. I sit at the end of the bed, making sure there's a comfortable distance between us. I sigh. "Why haven't you killed her yet?" I ask. "Why haven't you?" the young princess fires back. "Fear, I guess." I answer. "Love?" the princess proposes. I look away.

"Do you want to kill her?" I ask. The princess scoffs. "Of course I do. She killed my father and took over a Kingdom that isn't hers." she tells me. I nod. "Do you want to kill her?" the princess asks me. I look up at her. "I'm not sure." I answer quietly. "What do you mean?" the princess questions. "She's a horrible person and sometimes I wish she didn't exist, but I don't know if I could kill her." I elaborate.

We sit in silence for a while. "Do you love her?" the princess asks. I look away, unsure how to respond. "I don't know." I say, my voice almost a whisper. The princess nods. "I loved her once too." she tells me. "She used to be, or I thought she was, a lovely person. She treated me like her own. Whether that was an act or not, however, I'm not sure."

"How did you get here?" Snow asks. "She had my bestfriend. I traded myself for her freedom." I explain. "I'm sorry." she whispers. "Don't be. I put myself in this position." I tell her. "You're the one keeping her alive aren't you?" she asks me. I nod. "Why?" she questions further. "So she doesn't kill more young women, so she doesn't kill you. But here we are." I answer.

The princess shakes her head. "I don't want to die." she mutters. "I'm not going to let her kill you, Snow White." I tell her. I instantly feel guilty as I know I may not be able to live up to my word. The princess smiles a little. "I'm going to go now. Is there anything you need?" I ask. She shakes her head. "Okay." I say.

I exit the room, the guards following behind me.

I walk into the freezing throne room. Ravenna looks at me as she sits on her throne. "How can you be so fucking cruel?" I ask. Honestly, it's more of a shout. "She's hardly an adult, Ravenna. She doesn't deserve this. None of us deserve this." I shout. Ravenna says nothing. "She doesn't deserve to be trapped in a cell awaiting death just because you're a power-hungry monster. I don't deserve having to put up with this. You don't deserve anything. You don't deserve this Kingdom, you don't deserve me, you don't deserve life. None of it." I tell her.

She rises from her throne and walks over to me. "I'm doing this for us, Y/n." she says. "No, you're not Ravenna! You're doing this for you because you're a selfish bitch." I correct. She shakes her head. "I'm not going to let you kill her. You'll have to kill me first." I tell her. "I'm not going to kill you, Y/n." she says. I laugh. "Well then you're not killing her. I will protect that poor girl with my life." I say.

I turn to walk away but Ravenna grabs my wrist. I turn around and slap her across the face. She lets go. Guards start walking towards us but Ravenna stops them. "Why, Y/n." she says quietly. I don't reply. I walk away. She watches me leave.

I head outside, the winter air instantly freezing me. I ignore the goosebumps on my skin and keep walking. I get to a point where I realize how long I've walked for. I stop and look behind me. The castle looks tiny from this distance. I turn my back to the castle once more and stare the forest ahead of me.

I take a deep breath and scream. I just scream. A high-pitched, long scream.

I fold forward as I catch my breath. I drop to my knees. "Fuck!" I shout. I wipe my face with my hands. I stay on the ground for a while longer, just comtemplating life. Eventually, I stand. I brush the soil and muck from my dress then walk back towards the castle.

I decide to attend dinner with Ravenna. "Y/n, darling, you're here." she says as I sit. I say nothing. I don't even look at her. "You can't be mad at me forever." she says. I laugh and scoff at once. "I can, Ravenna. You hardly know me. I've been mad at you ever since you took my bestfriend. I will carry that anger towards you forever." I tell her. She doesn't reply.

"Just let her go, Ravenna." I say quietly. "You know I can't do that." she replies. "Why!? Why the fuck not?!" I question, tears pooling in my eyes. "You know why." she tells me. "I don't understand. You were happy using me at the start, but now you can't. That's what I'm fucking here for, Ravenna. What is your problem?!" I shout, tears streaming down my face. She stands. "My problem is how much I fucking love you, Y/n! I can't bring myself to hurt you again. If I kill Snow White I won't have to. We will be able to live without hurting eachother." she tells me.

I breathe a shaky breath. "But I don't want that, Ravenna. I don't want you to kill for me. I want you to be able to be content with our agreement, okay?" I say. She shakes her head and sits again. "No." she replies. "If you kill her, I'm leaving." I say. A worried look washes over Ravenna's face. "What?" she whispers. "You heard me." I tell her. "I'm doing this for you, Y/n. You can't-" she starts. "I can, and I will." I tell her. She looks at the table as if having a silent debate with herself. "Fine." she says. "Fine what?" I question. "Leave then. I won't have to hurt you, or others. I won't have you to hurt. You'll be free." she says. I open my mouth to speak but nothing comes out.

I wipe the tears from my face and leave the room. Ravenna keeps her gaze fixed on the table. I hurry to my room as I hold my tears in. As soon as the door closes behind me I drop. Tears stream freely down my cheek. Sobs occasionally escape my throat. "Why, Ravenna? Why does it have to be like this?" I say to myself through cries.

A.N: Uhhh :D