Fan Boy (VMinKook FF)

Chapter 28 - Forgiven

Taehyung

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"I-I'm attracted to both of you."

"You are?!" Jimin gasped.

"I know it's wrong," he sighed, dropping his head. "You're both already in a relationship, and I should respect that. But I can't stop myself. Whenever I see either of you, I feel this like...need. God, what's wrong with me? Just listening to myself sounds ridiculous."

Jimin and I looked at one another; communicating silently with our eyes.

"So, do you only find us attractive...or is there something more to this?" I asked carefully.

Jungkook frowned and played with his hands.

"Honestly? I'd be lying to myself if I said I didn't have feelings for you both," he replied with faint disappointment.

Jimin looked a little hurt now. "Then why did you just brush it off before? Why did you say it was just some 'innocent crush'?"

"I don't do well with expressing my feelings," Jungkook replied sadly. "I kind of... just repress them out of fear. So when I partially confessed to you, I panicked. I've never been in a relationship before, so I don't really know how to show a normal amount of affection towards someone."

"Really? You've never been in a relationship?" I asked slightly shocked.

I couldn't imagine anyone seeing him as anything less than the beautiful creature he was. He was different, definitely. But there was something about him that was just so...endearing.

"Never. I guess that's why I wrote the song instead. I knew that I wouldn't be able to properly express my feelings for you face to face."

What song?

"You wrote a song?!" Jimin blurted out.

"Yeah. Didn't you listen to it?" He asked, looking between the both of us. "It was on the USB I gave V-ssi."

Shit. That's what he must have meant when he mentioned the gift.

"Jwesonghamnida. I thought you were just pretending to befriend me after trying to 'steal' Jiminie. I didn't think you actually made it for me," I expressed lowly.

"I wasn't trying to 'steal' anyone. I honestly went to the fan meet with super low expectations. I thought you would just talk to me, maybe give me a smile, I'd give you the USB and I'd never see you again. I didn't think any of this would happen," Jungkook explained.

"Well, now I feel really terrible."

Jungkook pursed his lips. "No, you shouldn't. It's my fault. I should have just told you, rather than tiptoeing around the issue."

"No, I jumped to conclusions and thought the worst of you. I felt threatened. You were just so sweet, and the way you sat there all shy and innocent in front of Jiminie made me self-conscious. I could see the way he was looking at you. He was totally smitten.

I slumped down on the edge of the bed and put my head in my hands.

"And so was I...

Silence filled the room.

"When I saw you in the hallway before the fan meet, I couldn't take my eyes off you. I thought, Who is this guy? Is he the one that Hoseok was talking about? The fanboy? I couldn't fathom how the person I had waited to meet, was you. Someone so beautiful.

I looked up at Jungkook's face and met his watchful gaze.

"You scared me, Jungkook-ssi. I'd never seen Jiminie look at anyone with that much intensity...except me. And when I thought about it, it made sense that he would choose someone like you over me.

"So I lashed out. And in the process, I hurt you, Jiminie...and myself."

My eyes started to burn, as tears threatened to spill from them. So I quickly glanced away and inhaled a shaky breath; trying to settle my nerves.

"Oh, baby," Jimin sighed dropping down in front of me. "Don't beat yourself up over this. It's my fault too."

He squeezed my thigh and the first few tears escaped my eyes.

"I love you. You really don't have anything to worry about," he voiced warmly, as he brushed my tears away.

I looked down at him and suddenly, all my emotions bubbled to the surface. "I k-know. I just...I l-love you s-so much," I said with a small sob.

He engulfed me in a hug and I collapsed against him; allowing him to soothe my broken heart.

"Shhh, it's okay. You're okay, baby," he reassured.

When I eventually calmed down, Jimin gave my body one final squeeze before sitting back on his heels.

"Better?" He asked, looking up at me with a soft expression.

I gave him a small nod and proceeded to push his hair behind his ear. "You know, I really do love you," I whispered, leaning down to place a tender kiss on his lips.

He smiled into it and returned it with equal affection, which began to ease my troubled mind.

But after a few seconds, I heard the sound of someone awkwardly clearing their throat.

Oh, shit. I forgot he was still here.

"I think I sh-should go," Jungkook stammered from across the room. "I don't want to interrupt you any more than I already h-have."

I opened my eyes and watched as he silently slipped past us to approach the door.

"Wait," I called out, breaking away from Jimin. "You're still coming for dinner tomorrow though?"

He stopped midway and turned, looking a little unsure of himself. "You still want me to?"

Jimin gave my hip a gentle squeeze and I bit back a smile.

"We do," I said with a small giggle. "I'll text you later. Okay?"

Jungkook's mouth quirked slightly and he nodded, before turning and silently leaving the room.

"Are we really doing this?" I asked with a layer of excitement.

Jimin chuckled and pressed a chase kiss against my cheek. "I guess we are."