Noelle PoV
Me and my family went to Jadons grandma funeral, the first time I have seen Jadon
He came up to me and gave me a big hug
I could see the pain piercing in his eyes
The hug was warm and was very need on both sides, I did not want to pull away and I know he did not want to either
We then eventually pulled out
Jadon greeted the rest of my family
Jadon then walked away
He was walking behind his grandmas coffin with everyone trailing behind him
He looked at me and held his hand out
I looked at his mom and she nodded her head
I walked over to him and he put his arm around my shoulder and I wrapped my arm around the side of his waist
He placed a kiss on the top of my head
——— January 10th 2019
Since football was on hold at the Christmas break Jadon was stayed home in Kennington
Since the funeral we have hanged
Around most days
Even if it was just going on walks,
Going to grab some food,
Chilling on his moms couch or driving around London we was together
I did not get the chance to be able to see Jadon before he left but it is what it is.
As I also spent Christmas in London today I was going back to Manchester
——- the next couple of days
I have been feeling so shit since Christmas
I have been feeling real down lately
So frustrated and upset with everything
Working is annoying me so i decided to take some leave
I cried all the time, bro I am so fucking emotional,empty and tried
And I have no clue in this world what is making me feel like this
I was sitting on my couch crying over absolutely nothing again I am emotional
My period has already been and I was even more emotional on that
And my hormones are all over the place
Jadon🌟💫
Incoming FaceTime
I stared at the phone for way too long the call disappeared
Jadon🌟💫
Incoming FaceTime
Jadon called me again after missing his first Call
I picked it up and held the phone so he could no see my face
Phone call
"Hey" Jadon spoke first
"Hey" I replied
"Bro let me see your face" he says
"No" i reply stubbornly
"Why just let me see your face bro" he says
"Fine" I say moving the camera so he could see my face
"Have you been crying?" He asked me
"Nope" I say totally lying
"Noel come on now why you crying" he asked
"I do not know" I say crying even more
"What is wrong? You wanna talk?" He asked me
"There is nothing to talk about except the fact I am emotional about everything" I say giggling at how pathetic I sound right now
