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There's not a bad thing here tonight 🌙
Watch me go, now I sink down all alone

I reminisce lyrics from Jimin's Like Crazy sitting on a bench all alone in the park beneath pouring rain.
I was broken but I refused to show it to anyone, I didn't want to share my pain with anyone even my friends cause I am afraid they might laugh at my silly crush thing and will  complicate the whole situation more after all its all because of me, my stupid easygoing emotions and my misleading thoughts . I didn't knew I would develop this strong feeling towards that stupid brat who didn't even acknowledge me.

BEFORE :

I knew I had accepted myself to become his friends after all I thought it was just phase change and I will overcome it with time, I tried also but it still feels I am lying to myself.

"Alina "

I didn't turned around as it was very well known sound to me.

"What's wrong Ryan, I had completed your remaining homework and submitted it also, I am not in the mood to do any more work "

"Alina it's not that, I want you to meet someone special, someone close to me and I want you two to meet today only "

"Why me "

"Because you helped me whenever I need it without even speaking, I dunno but my friends say that you had done much more than what a friend does but I think you are just generous with everyone "

"Oh so you think I am generous with everyone "
(Stupid ) I just got irritated by his way of talking.

"I don't want to, you just get anyone else who is just generous as me " I said sarcastically.

"Sweetheart please "

"NO "

"She is so important to me if this meeting didn't go as planned I will lose her forever "

"What the hell are you even saying ? "

"I am sorry Alina, I will explain clearly"

"Go ahead "

"I like her and I wanted to propose to her but I got to know she like boys who have loyal girl bestfriend "

I was not expecting this, a girl he likes , I was okay it's good if he finds someone he likes that way I can also be free from this ongoing hurricane within me, maybe it is for the best.

"Ok in simple words she will say yes to me if I present her a girl bestfriend of mine who is loyal to our friendship and will never like me and always help us in building our relationship despite everything "

"You sounded much more complicated than before, what do you mean by present her and help you both, the hell ,is she even real who had these type of conditions to like someone."

"Hey , I wanted you to act like my bff and just pass every test she threw at you for testing our relationship and help me in getting her plus she is just testing my loyalty to her."

I was speechless , is he serious, do he think of me only in times like this, he want me to set him up with a girl he LIKES , but if I want to get rid of this crush thing I had to do this.

"Ryan.. " I Stuttered.

"Alina please I like her a lot and I wanted to give it a try, will you help me as a friend " He holded my hands securely in his.

I don't wanna let go of him ever but he don't like me and it's truth, I can't stop him from liking anyone else and if I can contribute a little towards his happiness, I would be more than happy even if it wasn't from me.