The Wandering Warrior (An Aot/Snk Male Reader insert)

Chapter 26: Pent up

I've been losing my mind for the past three days, even the rain outside bothers me, as if every single drop attacks my senses, Paradise is here, I'm not entirely sure when they got here, or when they got the resources to cross the giant gap but they are here I'm sure of it. I look over to the people of Marley 'have I really grown so complacent' when I initially came here I had a plan, I knew how I was going to use my wealth and influence but now, I'm not so sure. There are people I hated and now I'm not so sure what I feel. Is it anger, is it hatred, is it jealousy? 'how come I never had this? Why was I never told this? What made my Mother leave? How would Zeke know about that? My thoughts rush in at a hundred miles per hour, as I'm racing trying to get ahead of my own thoughts I am interrupted by a knock on the door.
"Who is it?" I yell to the door.
"Y/N, have you no dignity, you've been in that room for days" I recognize the distinguished voice as my Uncle Will. I rush over to the door and open it, just enough for him to see my head but not fully into the room.
"Come Y/N I need to speak to you about the next few days," he says leaning on the wall a bit. I sigh before opening the door fully, sliding out the room, and quickly closing the door back. I motion down the hall and walk with my uncle.
"I'm aware of your scheduled deployment tomorrow, however once you come back I would like it if you joined me with my speech" he says placing a hand on my shoulder.
"Uncle Will you know I'm not very good at public speaking, the last time ended with me getting a bottle thrown at my head" I say not enthusiastic about this idea in the slightest.
"Which is exactly why you should join me, one day soon your going to have to bear a precautionary heir, My child will have to take on our Titan, lots of things will be happening within quick succession and it would be beneficial if we could have the public trust this family again" he says explaining to me.
"Well I'm sorry to be such a dam blight on the family" I say spitefully.
"No no, I wasn't trying to insinuate that, you know we love you Y/N it's just that we as a noble family need to have the trust of Marley in order to thrive, if you publicly supported our efforts against Paradise it would only benefit you" he says wrapping an arm around my shoulder.
"I know that you still care for those on the island and I believe you when you say they aren't devils but this is the only way we can unite the world right now, to save our world from war we must sacrifice a small portion of the population," he says looking into my eyes.
"No, I don't believe that........I can't," I say looking down. I don't have to look to know Uncle Willy was frowning, however he simply pats me on the back before speaking.
"I will not force you to do anything, however I hope you know that Marley's government is not nearly as forgiving" I sigh before heading back to my chambers. I rub my eyes, I never stopped to realize just how exhausted I was, I haven't slept in days and all I can think about is the fate of Paradis. I open my door, running my fingers through my hair, I stop in my tracks as I see a slim yet fit figure on my bed with a book in hand.

"A.......Annie?!??!" I question confused, I quickly close the door and lock it behind me before turning my attention back to Annie.
"What are you doing in here" I ask a mixture of confusion and slight annoyance.
"Do you have any idea how bad things could have been if literally anyone else walked through here" I say.
"Relax I know you bring women here all the time, no one's gonna question why there's a girl in your bed" I blush at this, looking away out of embarrassment. 'dam she makes a fair enough point'
"No but seriously why are you here" I ask genuinely curious "I mean you've been avoiding me for the past few weeks and now all of a sudden you pop up in my bedroom....on my bed.....ya know not that I'm complaining" I say still blushing.
"I came here to clear something up" she says as she throws one of my books to the floor 'yeah sure it's not like I try to keep my room tidy at all' she walks over to me, in an almost awkward strut. My breathing increases as my heart beats faster, I don't understand why I'm so nervous around her.
"Do you hate me?" she asks bluntly, my mind draws a blank as I repeat her question in my head a thousand times, 'do I hate Annie?' Annie notices my silence so she grabs me by the face and pulls me in for a surprisingly passionate kiss. This kiss felt different from the last one we shared, still intense but In a different more compassionate way. After a moment she pulls away slowly, she looks me deep in the eye before speaking.
"Did that....I don't know do something for you?" She asks seeming a bit uncomfortable. I move past her and sit on the bed.
"I don't hate you," I say looking down at the ground.
"I don't hate you.....not even a little bit, I know I should, I should hate you for all the pain and trauma you caused to me and my.....our friends, but I just don't, I don't even hate Riener or Bertoldt, despite everything you did  I can't just forget the time we spent together as allies, or the memories we formed as friends" I say continuing my explanation.
"I'm incredibly angry with you all but I don't hate any of you" I say defeated. I feel Annie's hands gently grab onto my face and make me look into her eyes. She pushes away from me and sits on the bed as well, holding her knees close to her chest.
"I've done terrible unforgivable things, I did them because I wanted to return to my father, I don't regret what I've done, no matter how bad it makes me feel, but I question if it was enough" I raise an eyebrow at her as she pauses for a moment.
"I did what I did because I wanted to spend as much time with my dad as I had left, now even with everything I've done it was for nothing, not only did I fail but I missed four years of my life, four years I can never get back because of this stupid curse" she says her voice breaking a bit.
"There's no point in crying about it, I don't mean to sound harsh but your right, your never going to get that time back, so make the most of what time you have left before you die" I say rather bluntly.
"This isn't you Annie, yeah your solitary and even stuck up sometimes....." She cuts me off
"Is this supposed to make me feel better" she interjects.
"I'm getting there...yes your those things but you've never been one to sit and sulk in their own shame, your one of the strongest people I know, and despite the horrible things you've done, it just goes to show your determination and strong will" I say. She looks at me, I look at her.
"You really just have a way with words huh" she says sarcastically.
"Only for you" 'only for you, why the fuck would I say that' she starts to lean closer, I do the same closing my eyes as our lips meet once again, I've gotten use to the texture of her lips, her surprisingly warm embrace, She wraps her hands around my neck as I do the same around her waist. Her small frame would fool you into thinking she was frail but this close, with my hands traveling across her body, I can feel her strong body. I pull her closer, allowing myself to kiss her deeper, I allow my hands to freely explore her body, one of my hands snake it's way up her sweater, grabbing her chest. As I do this she lets out a little moan into the kiss, I smile at this and continue. She breaks away from the kiss in order to catch a breath, she pushes me on my back and straddles my lap. As she goes to kiss me again I stop her.

"Are we really doing this" I ask with a slight blush on my cheeks.
"Your the one who said to make the most of my remaining years" she says with a smirk before pulling off her sweater. I feel myself get incredibly aroused from this seeing her very Toned yet curvy body. She notices this and her smirk widens a bit as she begins to grind on my lap. As she does this she completely unbuttons my shirt exposing my upper body. The next few moments consist of us taking off Various articles of clothing and kissing each other in between. I hold her close kissing her deeply.

(2 hours later)

It didn't take long for her to fall asleep, I slip out of the bed, pull the covers over her, and leave the room. I make sure to lock the door before I make my way down the stairs. 'if I remember correctly that light show was telling me to meet them at that specific spot' I think to myself remembering the survey corps soldier from a few days ago. I hope to myself that their still there, I unlock the car door and get in pausing a moment, after a moment of hesitation I put the keys in and start the car.

I hear what sounds like a whooshing, like the wind was being cut in half. I reach the location I last saw the Survey corps member,  I make my way to the roof of the building and stop.
"I know your there, I heard your ODM gear from a mile away, I've heard that sound my entire life" I say out loud not entirely sure where the person is but knowing I'm not alone. A figure lands in front of me, blades drawn, in a familiar defensive position. The figure dashes towards me with speeds to fast to comprehend. Before I can even react to the movement I'm tackled to the edge of the building as I feel a blade pushed against my neck, the cold steel sending shivers through my spine.
"Who's side are you really on" the figure questions me, I can swear that voice sounds familiar to me. It finally hits me
"Mikasa" I say less shocked and more excited. The tone of my voice sort of catches her off guard as I push the sword from my throat and hug her close.
"So you guys really are here" I say tears building up in my eyes. She just sits there for a moment before eventually returning the hug. I finally let her go, looking around us, I see another Survey corps member on a nearby roof carrying what I can only imagine is a hunting rifle of some kind. 'Sasha?' I wonder as I turn my attention back to Mikasa who's face is not blocked out by the shadows.
"Don't worry I've got a plan, I just need you to trust me" I say looking into her eyes, a look of determination on my face.
"Ok, what do you got" she asks.

A/N: yeah ok that happened, definitely a longer chapter than I'm used to but hey I hope it was worth the wait, we're super close to 6k Views as well as 200 Votes so I just wanna once again thank those that continue to come and read my story, it's so cool being able to do this so I'm glad you tune in every time. I won't keep you long but yeah thank you and I'll try to have the next chapter out sometime next week.
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