𝙀𝙉 𝙂𝘼𝙍𝘿𝙀 | ʰᵃᵒᵇⁱⁿ ᵃᵘ

03

zhang hao had been avoiding hanbin ever since what had happened in the dressing rooms. every time he encountered the older boy, whether it was in the hallways, or inside the dorm rooms, which seemed to happen too often with matthew always bringing his hyung inside.

and each time he did zhang hao would either quickly pace outside and into one of his friend's rooms or hed turn his back against them, face the wall and cover himself with his duvet, so that matthew would think he was sleeping and leave him alone.

but by doing this, he'd also end up "overhearing",on one of the two boys's conversations.

"Hanbin hyung,did you end up talking to hao hyung after what happened?"

In zhang haos defense,he hadn't been paying attention to whatever theyd talk about until he heard his name being said.

"mhm,i taught him a small lesson"he heard hanbin say in a painfully cocky tone,he then heard the older boy laugh and flop back onto matthews bed.

"a lesson?what is that meant to mean"matthew asked back, he sounded cute and innocent,too innocent to know what type of lesson hanbin was flexing about.

"oh you know,the usual,i just pressed him against the wall,whispered a few dirty things and watched him shrivel up into a flustered little boy"

the usual?

zhang hao was confused,what did he mean by usual,did hanbin always do things like this?did he have some sort of playboy persona that no one was aware of?

"hanbin hyungg!,you said you stopped doing those type of things"

hanbin simply sighed,a small smile poking through his tired expression.zhang hao was still lying on his bed after the two boys had left,he was in a state of shock,sung hanbin was a playboy?i mean it had been obvious that hanbin was obnoxious and some what experienced in these type of things but hao would never predict that this was his true nature.

well in reality,hanbin was a player, but not in an fboy type of way, but the type that would simply just play around with your emotions, and occasionally throw in ounces of skinship, that could make the latter person go crazy.

he was a dance major in his final year of high school at hanlim arts school, everyone knew of him,the girls and the boys would blush and talk amongst themselves as he walked past,sung hanbin was a campus crush on his school grounds,a player that was also head of student council,and now also the centre of a global survival show,he was zhang haos worst nightmare.

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it was the day of choosing songs for the second mission,zhang hao was excitedly standing there,gushing over tomboy to ricky and yujin,he wanted to perform badly,he waited patiently for his turn to choose the song before confidently walking over to tomboy.

Once he was stood at the spot he had been so excited for,everything seemed perfect,until somoene had to mess everything up,sung hanbin.

The older boy was last to choose since he was p01 ,he strided towards tomboy,a song that no one had really expected him to choose,since it wasnt dance based.

But he did,and also suprisingly to zhang hao,he pushed lee seughwan out,in truth,zhang hao had been holding his breathe and looking down,he was afraid that if he looked up hed meet eyes with the k group centre,and that he would end up pushed out of the group.

Being in the same group as hanbin was a situation that zhang hao had never really thought about,but now as he was hit with the circumstance,he became quiet and awkward.

During practice they obviously would have to talk and communicate well to deliver a good performance,but it was diffciult,since zhang hao not only hated hanbin,but he also had started to fear his presence in a way.Hanbin was intimidating,and that last sentence that he was whispered that day seemed to mentally torment him.

Every time theyd gather as a group zhang hao would stick to hui,and sometimes even gunwook,anything that would keep hanbin far,far away.When they were together as a group,and hanbin would make a suggestion,the younger boy in return would simply just coldly reply,and kept a pokerface whenever he was around him.

But it became more and more difficult as time passed,especially after the interim check,where zhang hao was voted as the member that needed the most improvement,and that he lacked confidence.

It was embarassing when he heard that,and he could feel his ears going red,for the rest of the practice that day he felt unmotivated and useless,and being in the presence of hanbin made things even worse,from just feeling the older boys eyes on him made zhang hao feel belittled.

Hui had tried talking to him by giving words of advice,it had helped,but not enough.That night zhang hao had puffy eyes from all the crying,he sat on the stairs,when everyone else had either gone to sleep early,or were doing their night time routines,it was late.

Zhang hao was wearing a black oversized hoodie,and plaid pyjamas pants,he had hoped that the hoodie would hide his face,but it didnt really help.He just needed some alone time,and he thought that maybe sitting on the stairs for a while would help.

But ofcourse,somoene he despides so mcuh would have to see him in such a fragile state,hanbin seemed to have just taken a shower,his hair was wet,and he..smelled good,which no matter what,the younger boy couldnt deny.

Hanbin crouched down infront of zhang hao,who was sat on the stair above him,zhang hao in return hid his face and buried it into his knees.He didnt want his worst enemy to see his weaknesses.

Hanbin smiled at the younger boys timidness,"zhang hao,are you okay?",the older boys words came as a suprise to zhang hao,but he still hated it,he hated how hanbin presented himself as a perfect angel,somoene who was caring and kind,when in reality he wasnt,well to him anyway.

Hanbin patted zhang haos head,and gave the younger boys fluffy,black hair a soft ruffle,"its okay,you can talk to me"

Zhang hao finally looked up,his eyes were red,and brimming with tears,"leave me alone",he mumbled,his voice weak,and showing that he was about to start crying,he got up and tried to leave,but hanbin wouldnt let him.

Zhang hao looked up again,his sad eyes had turned into anger,he was about to push hanbin out of the way,when suddenly,the older boy pulled him forwards,and into his arms.Zhang hao smelt hanbins fragrance stronger than ever now,he could feel hands snaking around his waist,and he let out the tears that he had been trying so hard to hold in.

But before he could fully fall into a state of sobbing,he realised who exactly was hugging and comforting him,he was hit with another wave of anger,this time mixed with sadness and confusion.

Why was hanbin comforting him?

He pushed hanbin off harshly,wiping his tears with his hoodie sleeve,he ran off quickly before the older boy could hold him back again,"zhang hao",hanbin called,but to no reply..