Flaws

Our Cultures Great But Our Past Is Black

Deans POV
*trigger warning*
We arrived and I was beautiful. It was winter so that meant Luminarias (loom-i- na-dias). Since it was Christmas in two weeks. A giant Christmas tree was in the middle of the Plaza.

"If you're hungry, we could get pasole, tamales, green Chile. Whatever you please." I smirked.

"So this town is just Mexican food and Spanish names?"

"No Dean. This town is culture. Believe me. I hate this town to its guts. But not because of the culture. The culture is cultivated this town. Look, meet me here at six on Friday. Make sure to find close parking and wear something bright. This place us gonna be packed. Dress warm too. You'll understand culture after Friday. But for now, we can go to the Candy Lady and buy some meth."

"Sounds awesome, wait what? Meth! I ain't no meth head Cas."

"No Dean, candy meth. The Candy Lady makes it for Breaking Bad. I ain't no meth head either. Don't worry." After we got can't meth and pasole. We strolled looking a the Luminarias. It was about 3:30 am so naturally we went on a breaking bad tour. Not the ones that cost 20 bucks, but Cas took me around town. We went to the octopus car wash, Walters house, Hanks house, Los Pollos Hermanos (aka Twisters)and Sauls law firm. By the time we were done. It was 5:30 am Saturday morning.

"Well that was an adventure." I said parking only to get out and lay in the morning dewiness of the grass or a local park. Cas came crashing right beside me.

"I hope you had fun" he said. He was Laying on his belly using his elbows to keep him up. He looked over at me. "I had a load of fun." he looked cute with his sleepy eyes and bed head.

"AHHH! It's a bee!" I screamed

"Calm down Dean, it's a harmless bee," he took the fiend in his hand. "it won't hurt you. I love bees. They are beautiful little creatures." He let the bee buzz away.

"You're a beautiful little creature, Cas."
I grabbed his hand.

"Dean..no. I'm sorry I can't. I really like you, I do. But just can't."

"If you like me, then why not?" I asked very confused. But when I looked over to him, our lips crashed like waves on seaside rocks. Time stopped and it was just us. His slightly chapped lips on my cold lips. We were in perfect sync. I locked his lips and was granted access. But he soon pulled.

"I can't. Stop it Castiel." He cursed himself. "I don't want you to get hurt. When I said hell hole for a life. I meant the cage Lucifer sprung from. I don't need you to choke on the black smoke of my past." he said. A tear fell on his flushed cheeks. He got up and started to walk away.

"Wait Cas, you're not going anywhere. I've got the smoke too. We all do." he started run away. "Cas! Stop it!" I caught up to him and I grabbed him. I tensed up and closed his eyes. "Dammit Cas! Open your goddamned eyes!" he open to see me holding out my forearms with my sleeves rolled up. He scanned my scared arms. Some new cuts and some old ones. "Your not alone." He was crying really hard and he dropped to the floor. He took off his leather jacket to only have on an Tool shirt on. His arms were covered in blisteres and cuts. He burned. I hurried over to him. I kneeled and held him.
"I've got you angel. I've got you." He wouldn't stop crying. Then I saw a bee and remembered a song. i began to sing.

"Ocean blue
What have I done to you
Cut so deep
Yet growing through and through..."

"Two Door Cinema Club?" He sniffed "Are you a hipster?"

"My brother is..."I grinned

"you've got a soft spot for hipster music. Do for I." I smiled and he began to sing. "I built a hive
Became one with the bees
But we fell like rain
Got lost into the seas
If I don't know
The wind will carry me
So just hold tight..." then we both sang.

"Though
I'm far away
I know I'll stay I know I'll stay
Right here with you
Though
It might be to late
What would you say what would you say
What would you do..."

"Dean?" Cas looked up at me

"Yes angel." I meet the pools with mine.

"Fall with me? Let's get lost into the seas." He touched my cheek. I pulled him in for a kiss.

"Always..."

A/N I love that song. I feel it suited Cas. I'm working on fanart with the beehive lyrics with Cas. Well... TILL NEXT TIME oh p.s I live in abq and all that stuff Cas said was true. New Mexico sucks ass. The education sucks, almost every one is chatholic so I am an abomination. (gay and atheist) The school system sucks ass. And we are last for all deliveries. So California gets the new vans in December and we don't get them till march. No beach, sucky malls, the world's lamest amusement park, and rude people. But the culture is so beautiful. Like the burning of Zozobra (just look it up) etc etc.