Flaws

It's Just a Word

Cas POV

"Maybe we should go back to your place." I suggested as I looked out the window.

"Whatever you please, angel." He took his eyes off the road for only a second to meet my blue gaze then returned his back on the road.

"May I clarify something, Dean?" I asked after a few moments of silence.

"Yeah, sure, bee. Ask away." He pointed into the distance to emphasize his emotion.

"My view has not changed on us dating. I feel it is best for you to steer clear from me in that sense. I'm not very, uh, stable in these kinds of relationships. Don't get me wrong, I do have romantic feelings towards you, Dean, but you have to understand I can't. If you do care about me, you will let this happen." I went on. My hand became more interesting than the rest of the world for a second.

"Can I just say one more thing?" He spoke. The only reason I would like his mouth open is if he is kneeling and we are putting our dick in his mouth. Shit! I forgot to take my meds. They're at my house. Sing. It will help. "I close my eyes just to look at you." That's right old friend. It's Jimmy, your noggin mate. Enough with the depressing songs. Fuck him! You already know that singing doesn't help. was pulled from my though when Dean pulled over right before entering the forest that ran through the city.

"I just wanna say," he began. He grabbed my cold hands. His were caloused and warm. The car wasn't very warm, so when he breathed, his hot breath created transparent clouds. My gaze was fixed upon his lips. Kiss them you two bagged douchewad. "I'm trying. I really like you. Like, really like you, Cas. Your different, Cas." That's one way to put it. "You're not like the other guys I had a one night stand with or made out with for homework answers. I really like you and-" That's right, Cassie. Step two, fuck him. I silenced his rambling with my chapped lips. Jimmy is all in your head. Consentrate on Dean, Cas. "Mistook the nods for an approval." You can't just shut me out lover boy. I'm in your head. You can't escape.

Our lips move in sync. Hot breathes against our faces as we gasp for air but continue moving together. For a breif time, Jimmy was gone. It was just Dean and I. I bit his lip and he gasped. I took that to my advantage and slipped my tounge into his mouth. He deepened the kiss by tilting his head. He seemed to want dominance but I pulled apart and shook my index finger humming 'mm mm mmm'. I got to dominate his mouth. His cold lip ring sent little shocks in my body. My snake bites nipped at his flushed lips. For some reason, I managed to be straddling him and he was lying down on the impala seat. I stopped for a brief moment, just basking in his beauty. What are you doing, dipshit? Pull down his pants and open wide! We were soon kissing again, his hand on my cheeks, soft moans spilling like running water from our lips. If you can't even fuck the guy, you are worthless. Like Pops always said. 'You Worthless Piece Of Shit.' You don't deserve to live if you can't complete a simple task. Are you scared you pussy?

"Damnit Jimmy" I mumble against Deans lips. Shit! "Ignore the smoke and smile."

"Hold the friggin' phone. Who the hell is friggin' Jimmy?"

"Its nothing, Dean. Trust me." I say looking down at him.

" Don't tell me it's nothing. You just said another mans name while we were making out! What the hell!" Awe, Dean doesn't seem to happy that your fucking crazy. Tell him, Cassie. Tell him your cheese slid off your cracker a long time ago. Tell him your married the the voice in your head. CRAZY! Youre fucking bonkers, Cassie.

"Stop it! Jimmy stop!" I yelled. He deffinetly thinks youre crazy now, Cassie. Crazy, crazy, CRAZY! "I'm not crazy!" I yelled and got out of the car. I check my phone.

Message from: The Most Hip Of The Hipsters👽

"Hey-a Cassie. So I'm at Deans if you need your meds. Sam and I are, uh, friends. So call me back when your ass is near. Bye bye big bro." Then the beep sounded.

Looks like I'm going to their layer anyways. Deans gonna find out either way. "Call an optimist, she's turning blue, what a lovely color for you." Come on Cas, you can do this! Yes, Cassie, tell him your melons fried and you hear 'the voices'. You sing silly songs, but it's not going to make it better. I heard Deans footsteps come up behind me.

"Cas, what the hell! What is going on?" He grabbed my shoulder and turned me around. Controlling. Maybe he likes bondage?

"I told you, Dean. This isn't gonna work out. You have to listen to me." his big green eyes captured my pain and let the hurt go. "I have to go to your house. My brother is there with yours. He has my medication." I looked down.

"Medication for what?" He looked conserned. My my eyes began to water. Tears rolled down my cheeks cold. I looked up to see him surprised at me for crying.

Twice in one hour. Nice holding up pussy.

"I-I'm, uh, schizophrenic. There is a voice in my head. His name is Jimmy. He sucks ass. I need my meds." I was looking at the ground when I felt arms around me.

"I'm sorry I got mad at you. But this isn't a reason why you keep from me. Im here for you, bee. Now, let's get you to my place." My face was in his hands. He wiped away the tears on my cheeks with his thumb. His eyes were always perfect. Gazing past these things I have called 'flaws'. He was strong in a physical sense, even though those eyes told that he wasn't emotionally fit. He wasn't perfect. And I liked that. No I didn't like it. I- oh no, oh no Cas. Jesus fucking Christ. I'm falling for a stranger. It knew it was wrong, but it felt so right.

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Deans House

Dean and walked through the front door about 20 minutes later. It was 7:30am and I assumed Gabe was in the room with Sam.

"Where's Sam's room, I think Gabriel is in there?" I asked him. He was in the kitchen looking for pie I assume. He told me about his love for pie. It was an interesting conversation. Between bees and pie.

"I'll show you. It's upstairs. Follow me." He said and signaled for me to follow him up the stairs. We heard soft moans from the room.

"GOOOOOOOOOD MOORNING AMERICAAAAAAA!" Dean shouted as he entered the room. We stopped dead in our tracks to see Gabriel on top of Sam, the both of them looking at us in horror. Both their lips kiss deprived. Both shirtless.

"I didn't think you guys would be here a 7:30. It was just getting hot. Thanks, bro." Gabriel stated while climbing off Sam and going through his sweater pockets. "Here ya go, bro. Your 'voice be gone. ' " I took the bottle from him and nodded my head in thanks.

"We will talk about this later, Sammy." Dean pointed a finger at him an closed the door. I went downstairs to the kitchen. Dean followed me.

"Can I get a glass of the tasteless liquid people care about so much. I gotta swallow these puppies." I stated blandly as I leaned against the counter.

"Sure thing, sweets." He grabbed a glass from a cabinet and put it to the ice dispenser. Ggrrrrrrrrr. The ice came out very slowly, them came pouring. A cube fell on the floor and Dean kicked it under the fridge. Soon, I had water to scarf the nasty pills down. I downed them quickly.

"Dean?" I asked.

"Yes, bee?" He sat on the counter.

"You think I'm crazy?" I said. My gaze to the ice in the glass.

"It's just a word. It's just a word. Your not crazy." He cuddled me.

"There is a voice in my head named Jimmy. That's crazy right? I'm crazy right?" I felt a tear. My face was soon in his palms.

"The only crazy person is me. I'm crazy for you." He smiled and he kissed me lightly.

A/N- yayayayaya update! I HAD TO WRITE THIS THREE TIMES! DAMNIT WATTPAD! Damn thing wouldn't save. Buts it's all good in the hood.