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ep. 4 : take me home

The next day.

Today we had a class but not really. There were no teachers who attended our class, I feel kind of sad. Does that make us the most hated class by teachers?

Anyways, I got bored so I thought of an idea.

"It's boring. Let's play 'truth or dare'!" I said as they all agreed and we gathered our seats into a circle.

"Can I join?" Jongho suddenly came and sat on one of the seats near us. "Sure!" we told him so, he sat next to Chaemin.

"I don't have a bottle for us to use. Let's just go by age order." I said as they agreed. "Okay! Then, Chaemin will go first!" Aera said and the game went on.

I chose truth first and the question was who is the person that I really hate in class. I answered Ahin. Why? Because our whole class almost got into detention and were almost punished because of him. And also, why I hate him? He seriously flirts with Mingi even though Mingi's not comfortable with it.

First of all, I hate seeing my loved ones hurting or suffering. And seeing Mingi suffering from cringe and struggling to get out of Ahin's grip just makes my blood boil.

That flirtatious creepy a**hole. Like, I don't have a problem with gay people but Ahin is just an exception. He's literally a hypocrite. He says that he's being bodyshamed and faceshamed but he's the doing that to others too.

And I still remember that time when he kept backhugging Mingi and Mingi was trying to get out of his grip but he kept on hugging Mingi. He looked at me like his eyes were saying, "help me" but I couldn't hurt Ahin.

I just told Ahin, "you're disgusting as sh**." and he responded with "You're just jealous, b*tch." along with an eye-roll. I saw how Mingi was cringing over him. But I stayed silent after that so I won't be so obvious.

Okay back to reality.

"Again! Next is, Hana!" Jongho exclaimed, excitedly. "Truth or dare!" they asked. It took me a few seconds before answering.

"Dare." I chose dare because I kept choosing truth the whole time there will be no fun if no one did a dare.

"sing 'A Hug in The Dark'!" Chaemin said. "I don't know that song.." I muttered, shyly.

"Oh! Oh! Sing 'Lucid Dreams'!" Jongho said as I muttered an 'okay' before singing the song.

'I still see your shadows in my room'

'can't take back the love that I gave you'

'it's to the point where I love and I hate you'

'and I cannot change you so I must replace you'

And as I sang, I noticed two boys sitting next to me.

It was Yunho and Mingi. Yunho was seated next to me and Mingi sat next to him.

"It's making me feel sleepy~" Yunho stated as he closed his eyes, leaning his back on his seat. Mingi remained silent, his back facing me as I continued to sing and finished singing the chorus.

Jongho clapped his hands saying, "Okay. I'm satisfied. Convinced."

"Okay! Next is, Aera!" and we continued to play the game.

But during the game, I suddenly felt the urge to look for Mingi.

I turned to my side and saw only Yunho. Mingi left.

'Good... so if I choose next is truth and the next question to me is who is my crush, I will be able to say your name, freely and out loud.' I thought as I let out a bitter chuckle.

Soon, the bell rang indicating the classes had dismissed.

It somehow made me feel hesitant to go home. I still want to see him.

I packed my stuffs into my bag and went out of class with my friends. There, I saw Mingi walking next to his friends, down the stairways.

But I didn't walk towards him. I can't even talk to him or say 'goodbye' to him. I could never... unless, he's the one to tell me that.