But why?

Chapter : 1

CH:1

It was a cold New York night, you could hear the world moving on outside while Alexander Gideon Lightwood laid in his bed waiting for the inevitable. He was not nervous because he did not know what was in store but rather how long it was taking. He knew what he had done and he was ready to face the consequences. Ten minutes later he heard a loud knock on his door and sirens at the door. It was time, time to face the music. Alec got up from his bed, wiped the tears from his eyes and clenched a photograph to his heart before walking to his door to greet a swarm of cops accompanied by a man he had learned to despise.

"Alec Lightwood, you're under arrest for the attempted murder of Magnus Bane" said a cop. But not just any cop, it's Luke. Alec has known Luke for most of his life. He had been numb while hearing those words and offered his hands to him as if he was giving up. While leaving the house he saw a smirk on the man accompanying the cops. All throughout the way all he could think is what happened to their happiness and will he ever get them back? His happiness is tied to one person and that is his husband who is currently fighting for his life.

At the police station, he was processed and taken into a room. It was a small room with one light hanging in the middle and he was asked to sit down and while the processing officer tried to handcuff him to the table, he looked at Luke , " I am at the verge of losing the only thing important to me. I am not going to hurt anyone or try to run. Could we please keep them off?" Luke asked the officer to leave it and to give them some privacy. As soon as the officer left, Alec lost his cool and his eyes betrayed him. He started bawling his eyes out. How could he not after killing his love, his husband, his Magnus.

Luke in a whispering voice: Don't cry Alec. Everyone is watching. Alec wiping his regained his posture and sat in the chair looking at his reflection in the mirror. He knows he needs to do this for his Magnus, if he ever wants to see him. But will Magnus survive? Alec hates himself for not knowing how he is doing. Alec is sitting here thinking of all the events that took place that put the two of them so far apart. He believes," whatever the hell our souls are made of, his and mine are the same." His eyes get heavy but whenever he closes his eyes all he sees is Magnus.

For Alec, Magnus was his whole world. His day began with his thoughts and it ended with his thoughts. His husband was his biggest supporter and loudest cheerleader. Alec does not imagine his life without him so then why would he try to kill him? Why is he being arrested and why is he not fighting? Why is he not with his Magnus when he is battling for his life?