𝑩𝑳𝑶𝑵𝑫𝑰E ᴅevante ꜱᴡɪɴɢ

𓈈▮Tired▮

Hours after the party
NOT EDITED

I sat in the tub as I sipped on a glass of wine. Suge was rubbing my wet fit as I stared coldly at the bubbles that covered my naked body. I looked from the bubbles and I saw Suge just staring off whole massaging my feet.

"D-do you love me?"

"Your drunk and you need not a damn inchof  that liquor in your system." He spoke upset that I went into his stash and opened his fancy drunk. He has pissed already before from the fact that I came home drunk. He took a lot from him to even bathe me.

"That's an answer. If it was...you would have said something. You're just not saying anything." I said drunkenly as I flashed my eyes at him, not an inch of makeup was on me as my true Mark's said, my whole shoulder was uncovered from the bruises he marked on me and so much that was on my face. I just hid them too well. Too well.

"She's beautiful isn't she?" I asked him as I felt a tear slip from my eye. Suge began to stop slowly as he was massaging my feet. He looked me in the eyes.

"Brown skin brown eyes. I bet she's more than me rather than you could ever imagine."

"Serenity."

"Does she just gets you off Hmm? Is she more than a woman than I could be? Does she cook and bring you food during the hours and make you feel so good inside? Does she wear tight clothes around you? Does she have a much better body then, I mean I can see why Dre wanted her to be his plus one so badly I mean look at her she's a model. She more of a person than me."

"Serenity stop."

"No, you won't run away from what I'm telling you! I'm so tired of everything and everyone, I'm so tired of people pretending and putting on an act when they got demons just like me!" I screamed in his face as I didn't like how he was trying to hush the truth. I felt in these moments I had no limits I wanted to air everything out. I wanted him to know everything while the substance was raging in my system.

"You could never hurt me. You could never make me feel like I'm nothing because I know I'm not shit in this world. I know that everyone around me expects me to be perfect but I'm not. I never was."

"Can I tell you a story? Can I tell sure why I let you treat me the way you do?"

"After my mom left my dad she got a new boyfriend. He was sweet, I met him when I was twelve. A little Serenity with so much hurt of gold. The girl who didn't have music in a favor at a young age but poetry in her mind."

"I wrote poetry because it made me feel things and he knew I loved poetry. I remembered when on my fifteen birthday he bought me this white flower book, it was Maya Angelou one, I loved Maya Angelou she inspired me a lot."