You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions

1st april 1992

Notes:

yep, unpteenth fic from me, I bet you all must be sick of me ... well, just blame that FB group and its amazing challenges that always bring so many ideas to me ^^'

whatever you see posted/updated in this section will also have a conclusion, I pwomise.

Disclaimer: I don't own/know Muse, least of all Matthew Bellamy (but it's fun trying to get inside his young, bwilliant head, lol), it's all totally invented (said for what it's true in Wiki, articles, interviews and books) and I earn less than nothing from it
And, of course, the title of this fic is taken from the lyrics of the beautiful 'Unintended' by Muse

Teignmouth, My house, 1st april 1992

If I write it then it'll come true: I, Matthew James Bellamy, will have a band with worldwide success! Huh, did I say 'worldwide'? Planetarium, we will be the first band to play on the Moon!

After all, with you I can allow myself to talk big, right? You are my diary, starting from today, because I have decided so.

Finally what I thought was a useless gift from my brother Paul last Christmas makes sense.

You will be my confidant, dear Diary, that's what average people call you most of the time isn't that? I will tell you all my deepest thoughts.

And I'm just starting today because something epic happened.

I've been playing the guitar for a few years, the piano for practically more than half of my life and I'm still not part of any band, not stable at least... but today something has changed.

I mustered up the courage to go to Dominic Howard, who is so popular and can play so well, both drums and guitar.

I've been so stupid for all these months, blocked by bloody prejudices that have turned out to be unfounded: I thought he was an arrogant, that he liked to show off, that he would be extra elusive ... but no, he's the most available and kindest person in the world.

I asked him if he could give me some guitar lessons to improve myself, I was sure he would refuse, but not only did he accept, with a big smile, (I'm starting to believe that boy always smiles and risks dazzling you when he does, next time I'll I'll meet him wearing sunglasses!) but he also said that he just needs one more guitarist for his band, Carnage Mayhem, isn't that a really cool name?
And so, in a way, now I can consider it my band too, don't you think?

Well yeah, it's not like he's said yes yet, he just said he's looking for another member and he'll audition for me tomorrow after school... a real audition, like professional musicians, so cool!
But I will try all my very best, he must understand that I am the right element to complete the band!

You know, I'm generally a cosmic pessimist about everything, but this time I allow myself the luxury of expressing some optimism and already consider myself one of them.

So... yes, let me say it: I will be part of a band, but this time in a serious way, I'm sure it will last!

Today is the beginning of something important, I feel it.

Now I have to stop here.

Dominic said he's starting guitar lessons today and he's on his way here and I can't leave my room in total chaos, it's already more than enough the one in my mind, but at least I can rearrange the room.

You know, Dominic is... I don't think I've ever seen a guy like that... he's blond, yes, but he's really sunny in his own attitude!
Oh God... his hair is so long that... maybe he's gay, maybe I'll grow it too, to make him feel less uncomfortable!

Arghh what am I doing? I said I had to stop writing to you, there's a devastated room waiting for me!