Flight or Fight

Chapter 10

   It's been a week now since my parents were here. Every day was the same routine. We would eat breakfast together with my parents, unfortunately, and after I would just spend time with Damian a bit, because he had to leave with business with my father while I had to spend time with my mom.

I felt that it was like a fucking torture, the worst punishment ever. Why? Because I can't stay 1 second in my room without her coming saying that we should do this, we should do that.

And what she does is teachingme how to be a queen. Yes! You heard me, she is teaching me about something thatshe wasn't. I don't know how she would know that but what can I do.

 I tried ignoring her, and it's not working. And until she stays here, it will be almost impossible to ignore her.

So, I did what I could and just sat and listened, and most of the time we ended up arguing about it.

I tried being the "good girl", and I understand her intentions now, I think... But she cannot understand that I don't want to be like the other Queens before me. I want to stand out, to be different. I didn't know that much about the werewolf business, but I knew enough to say that I wasn't happy about it, and since I'm the Queen, I think I have a word in it too.

I just hope I can change a tiny bit. I want to see them happy too. I want them to see that not everything is right, that how they try to push girls aside and not have a saying in almost anything is not okay.

God! Just thinking about it, there are so many things I would like to change, but I think I'm also afraid a bit. I'm afraid they won't listen to me, that they will think I want to change everything badly, that I try to influence them in a bad way. I'm really scared even if I'm trying not to show it, and here is my "dear mom" who doesn't even care about me. She just cares not to embarrass her publicly.

How the hell she could call herself a mother? I really need her and here she is, with her lame excuses again.

Even today, the same routine, nothing new. I feel that I will lose it soon, that's for sure. 

While my mom was trying to explain how should a queen eat at the table, I almost fell asleep. Her seeing this started scolding me "I'm teaching you, for your own good and you? You don't even listen." That was the last straw, that's it.

 "Are you for real? I didn't ask all of this! I could learn from who the fuck I want, if I would like too. And here you are, dragging my ass every single day to teach me everything about werewolves, about being a Queen, and stuff. Well guess what? You are late for this kind of stuff. You were too busy with Lily. Well, think that you have only one daughter." I said, and before I went out, I added "Clearly you were okay until now, so, I don't understand what's the rush suddenly.

I didn't even wait until she said something, and I just stormed out. I didn't even know where I'm going, but I knew that I must go for a walk cause otherwise it will get worse. And I didn't know when Damian would come home.

The bodyguards wanted to come with me, but I refused it. I wanted to be alone. I needed some time alone to clear my head. They said ok and they let me go, even though I can bet they let Damian know first. I was fine with anything as long as I could go out.

I wish my parents would leave already. It's getting harder and harder to be around my mom. My father was kind of okay. When he was home, he would speak a little bit with me, but after would go on with his day without interfering in mine. He knew it was awkward everything, and it would be too fake to pretend that everything was okay all of a sudden. At least he acknowledged it, while my mom he is on another level. She always was like this. With me she always was cold, and I didn't understand why. At least if she could explain why. At least I would know why she doesn't like me.

Just the thought made me cry. I felt my heart break in pieces. It was the worst feeling ever.

Feeling this bad I didn'teven realize that it started raining. But that didn't stop me from having anice walk. Where was I going? I don't know, but I was to hurt to stop. My mindcouldn't think at all about stopping or going back. I mean, I didn't know atall the city, and I didn't think at all about taking my purse with me or atleast my phone. My mind knew a single thing, and that was to protect my heart.Even if my mom broke my heart each time we were arguing, but every time myheart broke, hurt more and more. And this time I couldn't bear it. Even if itwas just the start of an argument, it was enough for me. I couldn't handle itanymore. Knowing that I need her more than anything she doesn't care. What shedoesn't  understands it's that I need my MOM, not a teacher who is teaching me because she doesn't want to get embarrassed in front of others.

How I was lost in my thoughts, I didn't even realize where I was. I started to look around and I didn't recognize anything. I mean, I was in the woods somewhere, and didn't even know what direction the town was. I knew I was doomed. Even if inside, I was panicking on one side, the other side of me wanted to see if she or Dad would come looking for me. I was really curious but scared at the same time. It was such a bad thing that I could not shapeshift into a wolf. I could've been faster, and I would've found my way back.

Damian will be so angry when he realizes that I didn't let any of the bodyguards of his to come with me, and that I got lost. Okay.... I just need to calm down, and to go ahead. At least we will know where this path takes. It's not like I saw something new every step, I mean it was just a forest like the others, but this one had a weird vibe. Or probably it was only me, cause I was scared? I don't know, but I wanted to just get out of there as soon as possible.

I think I was walking for more than half an hour and I didn't saw anything else other and trees and trees and other trees. After another 30 minutes I saw an empty field. It wasn't that big, this field, it was a small circle just.

I stepped in the middle of this circle and I looked up. I saw that it's almost night and I'm still in the woods and I can't hear anyone coming or looking for me. I started to spin around to see in which direction to go but I just fell on the ground almost crying. If I wouldn't been so idiot...

 But it wasn't time for me to cry, but to act. So, I got up and I started looking around one more time. Randomly I chose a path. I didn't know where it will take me, but I had to give it a try.

My senses were dead now, and I needed them now the most. If I would've learned more in geography now it would've helped me a lot, but nooo... I chose other things than to learn stuff. How clever I can be.

After some time, walking, I started hearing some footsteps. At first, I thought I heard mine, but even when I stopped, I could hear it. "Hello? Someone it's there?" But clearly, I didn't get any answer back. How lucky of me. And I insisted again but this time a bit louder, "Hello?? Who's there?" but again nothing. I started listening from where it could come the noise, and I went in that direction. This time, I found a lake and I rushed there to see if it was clear because I was so thirsty. And luckily it was clean the water, so I started to drink from it, but I was interrupted by someone who shouted "Don't! Don't drink from there!!" I took 2 more sips, and I turned around to see who it was.

But it wasn't who I was waiting for...

I was really surprised seeing who it was here.