hello everyone :)
so i just wanted to clear somethings up because in the past week something has come up during my ✨therapy✨ sessions
**short and to the point version**
at first i believed vix to just have adhd, now i'm realizing because of my own experiences vix is
(most likely) autistic
**reasoning lmao**
as i've mentioned before, vix is an oc based off of me and i've also stated that they are neurodivergent because i am and that's how i know how to write them lmao. originally vix was supposed to just have adhd (which would have them fall under the neurodiverse umbrella) and anxiety because those have been my diagnoses in the past.
however over the past two weeks it's been brought to my attention im probably autistic, making me think that vix would be too if it turns out that i am. i wanted to bring this up so i could correct some things without it being so abrupt and also to just put it out there so that i don't have to constantly have it nagging me.
one thing specifically i need to change is the "anxiety/panic attack" scene. learning more about myself, i'm now realizing it more resembles sensory overload/a meltdown. also the fact that they stim (like me lol). i'll edit those bits that need to be changed tomorrow-
(future lemon in a mencing voice: this was, in fact, a lie)
-but I just wanted to mention it. i start the process of being professionally diagnosed in august, though, so vix being autistic isn't cannon (lmao) just yet. if i get diagnosed with autism, though, i'll probably add it to the description of this story.
if you've actually read this, thank you so much <3
me writing this isn't only helping me clear some things up for you guys and making me feel less guilty about inaccurately representing neurodivergence, but it's also helping me come to terms with it as well. i don't know if it should be this world-crushing as my brain is making it out to be- because autism is not a bad thing!!!!- it's just very overwhelming to see everything fit into place.
it's like having everything you've tried so hard to hide about yourself is being shoved out under the spotlights. you're expecting rotten tomatoes as soon as you stumble out, when in reality the audience is handing you roses; it's you that's throwing the curses at yourself left and right.
this turned out to be more of a poetic rant than an explanation at the end, but i'm in love with imagery so i just had to 😭 lmao
I'll try and be out with another chapter by next sunday but i can't promise anything (i'm sorry loves ):)
please take care of yourself: eat, sleep, drink water and all that jazz :) i love you all and im proud of you
<3, lemon ?
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