𝙙𝙖𝙙𝙙𝙮 𝙞𝙨𝙨𝙪𝙚𝙨 // 𝙨𝙪𝙣𝙖 𝙭 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧

T H E L E T T E R

My gift to you all...

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Akachan

I know I wasn't perfect. I wasn't a good person still am not a good person. You would know that better than anyone. I felt as though I didnt have to hide myself from you like I did for everyone else. You were the only person that didn't judge me and still saw the same person you met for the first time.

For the first time I had as close to an equal as I could get in my life. You were that Akachan. I never got to show it because I never let myself be anything with anyone.

I dont know what I feel is caring about you or the fact of knowing that no matter what I did to you or others, you would love me the same.

Its a powerful feeling knowing this. Even after all of this I will forever creep in your mind for the rest of your existence on this earth.

Despite the hurt and shit I put you through Akachan , Id like to hope youd think of the good times we had together. The party, the car meet, school. I'll never forget.

Apologizing is not something I do. I never had to apologize for anything in my life because I always felt everyone had it coming and my level of caring being non existent.

No one deserves my first and only apology more than you do. Im sorry that our last night together was not the best night of our lives. Im sorry that its one of the reasons that you hate me now. If I could change who I am, I would, only for you Y/N.

Its too late now for all of this to be fixed. I know that now. My death won't fix the shit I left you behind to deal with. My death is meaningless in comparison but at least this letter is worth something.

Finally, Im sorry that I never let you know why I am the way that I am. How and when. Im sorry you will never see or know who I am. It was better off this way.

When we reunite again Akachan, my soul will rest.

Suna