𝙙𝙖𝙙𝙙𝙮 𝙞𝙨𝙨𝙪𝙚𝙨 // 𝙨𝙪𝙣𝙖 𝙭 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧

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After Suna had left, you ran to your attached washroom and cried in the running shower water.

How could you let this happen to yourself? You had been taught your whole life to be careful and to avoid situations like this. Hell, you helped friends in the past get out of situations like yours.

No, your situation was different.

You weren't sad cause you had been raped.

You were sad and angry at yourself because no matter what he could do, you would love him the same.

Call it being mentally insane but that was the cold hard truth. This made you realize that you had fallen in love with a sick bastard. You thought you understood him, you thought you had him all figured out like the others. You would soon come to realize that you in fact knew nothing about him. No one did in fact.

You cried for the love you had for him. You cried for the people that are in the same boat as you. You cried for him.

Your mom had heard you crying loudly in the washroom and saw you naked in the shower on the floor with your knees up to your chest. She came in and hugged you. You cried into her chest as she whispered you to let it out. This was the closest in a while you had been with your mom.

After your third suspension from school in Miyagi, she had suspicions of you being in gang related activity for awhile. Around that time you had finally come clean to her slightly. You didn't mention who you were with, you had just said you had gotten with the wrong people and now were stuck. Was half true but now those wrong people were your family.

You became one of those wrong people.

And you saw no other situation you could be in. You admitted to yourself that this was it. This is the life you have for good.

Your mom took you out of the shower wrapped you in a towel and told you to go get changed and try to sleep. You had changed into comfier clothes but you couldn't find yourself falling asleep. All that was on your mind was Suna. Everything he did to you. Everything he said to you.

He stripped you from yourself. You felt a void inside of you. You felt nothing. You couldn't find yourself wanting to run away from him. To never speak or see him again. No, you wanted to see  what you could do to him now.

You wanted to see what would happen to him if you ruined him almost just like he ruined you.

But you can't ruin someone who has nothing for you to ruin.

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Its been two weeks. Two weeks since Suna had visited you in your room that night. Two weeks since you last saw him. Two weeks since you last spoke with your friends from Hyogo. Two weeks since you felt whole.

You were an empty shell walking around. All your life consisted of now was skipping school since that day to grow your business. You finally started a small business of your own without the Shiri gang knowing.

Of course, this wouldn't last long as they would hear Mazoku was running a little side business. You had enough arguments to defend your honour though.

The business you were running was drugs. While using your connections with others, you had an advantage to continue to supply this business and make profit of it.

Graduation wasn't in your cards anymore. It went out the window that night and you were now collecting money to move out on your own back to Miyagi.

Hyogo wasn't the place for you. Some people you met here were great but you realized in order for you to escape Suna you had to leave this place and forget about him. Deep down you knew you couldn't completely forget about him.