𝐈𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 | Jaywon | ✔

05

I have a lot of thoughts running through my head. Where is Jay? What do these guys want from us? Did Agus really show up again? Exactly who is he anyway? Who is Jay really? Do i know him at all? When is he coming back? Will he ever come back?

With all the questions, I don't get how Izumi looks at me "I always make the effort and cook something and you pull that face"
I look confused, "What? Oh sorry Izumi. I am just exhausted". Izumi sits in the chair next to me and puts a hand on my back. "Don't worry kid. Jay is not the type of person who talks a lot about what he does. It's not you, I don't know what's going on any more than anyone else here. We all worry, but there's no point in breaking yourself over it. Do you understand what I'm saying?"

Pulled out of my thoughts again, I just nod. My eyes are almost closing and I can't get a sound out right now. I put my head on my arms, which are lying on the table and don't notice much anymore. Izumi covers me up and then I fell asleep. 

After a while I wake up again, I wake up and figure out where I am. I'm still sitting in the chair and I can feel my back starting to hurt. I look at the clock on the wall and see that it's 2 a.m. I stand up slowly and yawn, then turn off the light in the kitchen, walk through the dining area and past the sofa. Through the glass door you can see the always-lit entrance area, where the stairs to the top are located. I open the glass door and go up the stairs, where I fall into my bed and fall asleep again.

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I hear voices in the hallway, slowly open my eyes and sit upright. I listen a little more closely and can assign one voice to Izumi, the second voice belongs to... Jay?!

I jump up, stormily open the door of my room and look down the hallway, where Izumi is standing with Jay. He's actually back!! Izumi disappears downstairs and Jay turns towards me. He just sees me standing in front of my door with my shirt and shorts. I feel my eyes fill with tears, I try to hide it as Jay walks towards me. As he stands in front of me, I clench my fists and glare at him. I hit his chest weakly with my fists and then more "You asshole! You damn...Why were you gone for so long?! I hate you"I should stop before I get even more upset but at this moment it's not my head that controls my actions but my feelings. Jay endures the insults and the beatings for a while, then he firmly holds my wrists and looks at me "I'm sorry" he says quietly and I slowly calm down. 

A single tear slides down my cheek, then the wetness in my eyes disappears again. Jay now pulls me to him and puts his arms around me, after a while I close my eyes and put my arms around him as well. "Are you alright?" he asks softly while we're still hugging. I shake my head, which seems to notice, because after a moment he asks, "what's up?"
"You were gone forever without us being able to reach you. Also, I was being followed, I overpowered them and brought them here, but they don't want to talk and that annoys me." I feel Jay laughing softly for a moment. I jerk out of the hug and look at him "what's funny about that?" I ask annoyed. "Nothing, sorry. We'll get them talking, I promise."I just nod and take another step back. "Sorry," Jay repeats. I don't know exactly what he's apologizing for now. I shrug, "Next time just stay in touch and don't just go off on your own. Besides, you didn't even say goodbye properly." Jay then just nods "won't happen again". I don't go into it because I know that he will not and cannot comply.

"What did you do? What did you find out?" His expression suddenly changes: "Nothing. That's it, it didn't do anything. Agus is back, that's for sure. However, I don't know where he is or what he's up to and what to expect and that upsets me. I hate uncertainty more than anything" at these words I look at him disappointed. 

Jay is quite temperamental, I've seen that clearly in recent years. He doesn't seem afraid of anything and rarely shows emotion towards anyone other than his family and Mingyu. 

Mingyu saved him from death during a fight in Korea. Since then they have been close friends.