The 5th lost lord

~Youngest~

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You thought Daniela saw that her words hurt you a bit but you hoped she doesn't notice it did hurt you. After everything with your wife you couldn't take things easy on yourself. You started to feel guilty and whom to never leave her side. The docs came back and shocked you. -This pregnancy will be hard. Ma'am you can't work, not a single alphabet cause you're expecting twins. A girl and a boy. They are healthy but you have to avoid any kind of stress and may I ask the other mother to do the same. You connected emotions yours are just as important as hers are. -Really how? -When you stole her bad emotions you had to replace it with your own good ones. The monster of your is capable to do it but now you'll suffer cause of pregnancy and your own self-doubt and it is twice as bad as it usually is. To be honest you did the best cause if you couldn't do this our mistress should face with this suffer.
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Take care of yourselves and we'll meet again when it is control time. -Thank you doc. -My honour to help you! Ma'am you're free to leave the hospital wing but don't stress yourself. She smiled and left. She wanted to get up but you stopped her. -What are you doing? -Getting up? -No, no, no. You got her into your arms with the help of the mutant version of you and carried her in bridal style. -Oh you're so caring dear. She cupped your cheek and you blushed. -I just want to take care of you now. This two have to be okay and of course their mother has to be the finest. -Ahw. Such a loving wifey. -I'm just..-I know. You just want the best for us and want to care of us. -Yeah, Exactly. -Aand this two is your weakness. You already gasped for air to reply but she stopped you. -Don't you dare to say no. -Okay..fine. You got me.
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They are the new weakness of mine but! That doesn't means you are no longer my weakness cause you are and I don't want you to get hurt by anyone. -Calm down I know. You won't let down any of us I know. You don't have to prove a single thing. You proved just enough for everyone. -You're right I Just..you know..-Yeah I know just a habit what is no longer in your life. Hard to get trough. I'm sorry I make it harder probably..-No, don't you think about this. You make it easier I just want to prove you I'm ready for everything for this family. I tied the knot with you and our daughter and son are on the way. I was wrong before..-Why? -I said I want to prove you I'm ready but I want to prove myself I'm ready and I'll be a good parent. I always was afraid of becoming a parent cause that's just hard sometimes.
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While you were talking you arrived to your room and you put her to bed. -Here. I know it'll be boring but you can't risk your life. -Mine? -Yes. If you lose the kids they can easily kill you cause you know the blood in your belly is not good for anyone especially you. -Yeah you're right. I forgot that part easier than anything. -What would you like to do. -Talk maybe? -Okey then. -Let's continue what we talked about. -Oh where was I..aha..I know. So I feared till this day to be a parent cause seeing my parents tears for me every time I felt like if I die a part of them comes with me. They gave me life and 9 months in my mom's belly where I was safe made us inseparable from the other. She knew what I needed and when before I was born. My dear father could never understand this. I loved him but mom knew everything before I told her. She felt me.
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Maybe because we are monsters but maybe it is something only the mother is capable of. I want you to know even if I'm struggling I'll be by your side, love you and never leave you. I promised with the unbreakable vow that I'll be here no matter what. -Oh sweet Mother Miranda you're so emotional. Why do you make me cry in happiness? I have the best wife in the world. Thank you dearest. -There, there. Let it out. I got you. After a little time of crying she fell asleep and you covered her with the warm blanket. -I promised honey no matter how bad it is for me I'll be here till it's my time to leave. You whispered. You got up and went for your secret diary. When you found it you opened it and started writing in it.
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"The monster is going to leave soon and I can't stop him. He finished his job I have to find a way to live forever or Alcina will break down. How could I tell her that my freaking self made a deal with her grandma before I was fully sane? I promised I can't break this and I can't break the silence cause I sweared on my life that I'll keep that hidden from everyone. How will I survive this? Maybe I won't be able to see my children growing up. I thought I can make my dreams come true and be a master of gymnastics. I feel like I'm a failure and I can't protect my family from loss. How could I tell them without writing, and saying anything? It's so hard..I don't have time to think about this I have to take care of her until I can..and the daughters..my poor angels. What will happen to my brothers and my parents. I'm so stressed and worried about them..what I have to go trough to get immortality?"
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You closed the diary and your head was resting in your hands. Thoughts were roaming in your head nonstop. Every second that passed made you feel like you're going to lose this anyway. "-No..I'm not going to. Alcina and everyone needs me. I'll go and ask her grandma to give me a sign how to continue, or a tip, or anything I can use for help. I need to stay strong until the last fight..the last fight with myself..cause the power..it wishes someone who is strong and sane. I have to win no matter what cost. I have to beat..My..MONSTER."
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