•It'll Be Okay• GENMUI

chapter 21

Mui pov

Genya ruffles my hair..

It just.. hurts.. having short hair.. my mother.. she loved my hair so much..

"Hey, why don't we go for a walk?" He asks me, I look up at him.. "around the park, just to get your mind off of everything..?" He adds, I nod slowly..

He quickly grabbed my hand, rubbing it with his thumb, "come on!" He said, tugging my arm.. his hand was so.. warm..

He looked at my hair and fluffed it up, "you want it cut before or after the walk?" He asked me, I looked to the side.. then back at him.. "later.." I said, he nods

We walk out the door.. I always played st this park as a child.. I remember yui accidently pushed me down the slide and I fractured my arm.. I miss yui... I want him back..

He let go of my hand.. I looked up at him in confusion.. "go for a run'' he slightly smiled, I shook my head.. "I don't have any energy..." I told him.. "you need to eat, that's why"

I thought for a moment.. I do need to eat.. but it's so hard for some reason..

Genya layed down on the grass, patting a spot for me.. I sat down next to him, and he pulled me close.. I felt myself heat up..

"You don't get cuddles, do you?" He asked.. I tilted my head in confusion.. "You don't seem to cuddle" he told me, I realized he was trying to cuddle.. I felt warm again.. it was weird..

I went and laid down next to him, he pulled me close once again.. "glad you've got short hair, if you got all this mowed grass in your long hair it'd take hours to get out-" he slightly chuckled.. I tried to laugh.. but couldn't.. I hate this hair.. I really do.. I wish it was long..

He moved his thumb on the back of my head, back and forth.. it felt so nice.. but at the same time it felt odd... really odd..

"Don't be all solky about your hair, it grows back you know?" He said, looking in my eyes.. I turned away.. I hated this.. "but... it'll take.. so.. so.. so long to grow back to what it was before..." I told him, he shook his head.. "just don't think about the time, think about when it is grown back, and how happy you'll be" he told me.. I sighed.. "I guess... but I.. my hair.. it was so special to me..." u stuttered, about to cry..

He hugged me and ruffled my hair once again..

"Its okay.. it'll be okay.." He said..

But it was hard to believe him.. he was trying everything to stop me from cutting myself.. he's trying everything to make me happy.. there's no point.. once yuis dead..

I paused my thoughts.. I knew exactly where they were going and I didn't like it..

I wanted to cry..

But I couldn't cry infront of genya.. not again.. suddenly I felt genya moving..

"How about.. we get ice cream? I know you don't want to eat.. but please try have some ice cream, we can get you something small" he told me.. holding my hand, I shook my head.. he frowned, "you need something to fill that stomach if yours" he told me, and yet again.. I just shook my head..

"Alrighty.. well, should we get home and fix this hair of yours?" He asked.. I looked down and he patted my head.. "Hey, it's okay, once it's cut, it's all your choice what you do with it. If you want it long, I'm not gonna stop you, we just need to even it out" he said..

I looked around fir a moment before nodding...

He nods too and grabs my hand.. "i promise I'm not making it short short, just evening it up. We can have as many breaks as you need" he told me, I nodded again..

We started walking back to his house.. I was scared.. I didn't want to cut the rest.. I just want it back to long..

Once inside he sat me down in the bathroom on a stool, I was scared.. all the damage had already been done but.. it was still so scary.. as a kid.. mama always told me..

"Mui, please don't cut your hair, okay? Not until your older, just for mama, is that alright?"

And I cut it.. I let it get cut..

She'd be so.. disappointed..

I felt genya behind me, he handed me a hoodie.. "wear this so you don't get anything on your clothes, alright?" He asked.. I nodded and silently put the big hoodie on.. it smelled like genya..

I felt him move my hair, Then I heard a snip.. it made me flinch slightly.. I hated it.. I really did.. he stopped, "break?"

I shook my head.. ''it needs to get done.." I told him, he nodded.. he began to snip a few more chunks off.. I could see it getting neater in the mirror.. but I really hated it..

"Your doing really good mui, I'm really proud" he said, patting my head.. I smiled..

He quickly finnished the rest.. I looked so different.. "You actually look really nice with short hair, mui" he said, I nodded.. but I hated it.. so.. so much..