On The Inside (DAVEEAST)

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Knox Monroe's p.o.v

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{ LOCATION: MONROES CARWASH AND AUTO SHOP }
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Me and sincere we're helping out at the carwash today due to my uncle not feeling well .. I was the money behind the business I didn't usually get my hands dirty at the businesses I owned, but I did like to pop out to spots I owned from time to time to see if people were really doing their fucking jobs and all the business was right ..

" how's shit with ol girl ? " I said referring to sin new joint as we smoked hardly working due to it being slow right now ..

And imma be honest with y'all I forget shawty name often as fuck and don't really care to learn it .

" we cool she just be on my dick about noemi and our co parenting situation and that shit be annoying as fuck ." He said annoyed as ever passing me the blunt.

I could understand why that could be annoying for my cousin let alone any man .. cause I know first hand how it is when your girl worried about shit that's not about nothing, but again his situation was different and his fault, you cant cheat on your baby moms and expect your rebound to not feel threatened by her ..

Cause I already know anytime he goes to get dinero shawty probably thinking In her mind they fucking and playing house ... little do sin and shawty know noemi is not worried them and doing her with the next Nigga and of course I know this courtesy of my messy ass girl who always as she would say " put her nigga on to the latest tea ."

" I think she got a new Nigga I can feel it she got a glow to her lately.." he said and I automatically knew he was talking about noemi

And I wasn't gonna be the one to confirm or deny cause I didn't care and it wasn't my business..

" we'll if she do that's good for her, noemi is a smart girl she not gonna have no random Nigga around neiro or putting herself in harms way , you need to leave all that toxic shit and love her as ya child mother and be a good coparent and friend to her all other bullshit aside " I suggested giving my cousin the real ..

At this point I felt like sin damn father ..

Sincere was coddled as a child which I felt contributes to his childish ways .. although me and my cousin were raised like brothers our morals and lives we chose to live were different. and with that being the case in many ways we were very different type of men ..

" I ain't gonna do shit Nigga , I already hurt her I'm not stupid to fuck up anything she got going on atleast not right now shit still fresh .." he said rolling his eyes

" hold on " i gestured to him as I was receiving a call

I excused myself and walked to the office and shut the door to answer the call because I was waiting on some other business shit that was scheduled to come through soon..

" yo " my voice rasped through the line ..

" umm knox ..?" The voice said which fucked me all the way up .. I had to be tripping right now

Cause there was no way it was who it sounded like ..

" who is this ?"

" it's Alexis .. " she answered

As I fucking thought ..

I was kinda taken back considering I haven't spoken or seen lex since we broke up and that was years ago at this point ..

" not to be a dick or nothing but why you calling me ? " I said getting straight to the point

" umm.. I was wondering if there was any way we could meet up and talk I'm in town for a while and I feel like there's a-lot i personally need to tell you as well as maybe apologize about how I did certain things .." she said sounding sincere but almost like she was begging

As I thought about it my mind immediately went to Yara .. Fuck ..

" damn .. you gotta let me reach back out at another time lex on if that's something Imma be willing to do I'm not even gonna lie to you .." I said trying to think of the right thing to say in a moment like this

" knox please consider I wouldn't be reaching out for bullshit, imma be staying at the Hyatt Regency on 5th and grand boulevard for two weeks please if you can find it in you meet with me so we can talk .." she said with urgency lacing her voice

" I gotta go lex .." I said before hanging up

I was currently between a rock and a hard place because I was honestly very happy right now and my last memories with Alexis were the opposite. but at the same time I feel as if we left off without closure, and even after all these years I still feel like maybe a conversation would be able to officially kill the past. And these unknown questions.

I approached the front back where sin was and I guess he can tell I was off ..

" what you and ya got into it ? "

" no Nigga .. why the fuck lex call me asking to talk and meet up ??."

" aye finally now I'm not the only Nigga with female drama better not let Yara crazy ass find out .." he said shaking his head slightly laughing

But shit wasn't funny I was conflicted on telling Yara now or waiting a bit cause i honestly wasn't even sure if I was gonna reach out in all honesty shit with lex was so long ago on top of me being with ya .. I was in love with my girlfriend and I had no feelings for anyone besides her .

I wish lex well and even still had love for her despite everything that went down with us but Yara made me feel something I couldn't even put in to words she was the medicine to my broken soul .. and I felt sick when I was away from her ..

And nothing was gonna jeopardize that so if I decided to meet for the conversation this was gonna stay far away from my happy home and disappear even quicker then it came to my attention ..

A Nigga had no time for setbacks or drama ..

I felt my phone vibrate indicating I had a text .. I saw that it was from Yara and I in a way started to feel almost guilty even though a Nigga didn't even do shit ..

I love you too Yara .. I love you too ..

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A lil calm chappie ! Uhhh ohhh not the ex wanna talk to Yara man !? How y'all think he should handle it ??

- do y'all feel closure is needed to properly heal and move on ?

- what's the ex wanna talk about ?

- you think knox shouldn't do it or just tell Yara that he's gonna meet up with her ?

- how y'all think Yara gonna feel?

THE MORE COMMENTS THE QUICKER THE UPDATE!!!

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