Our Love. (Jakehoon)

Chapter 30

After i put Jihun to sleep, I was still l I just want to be alone. I still thought about dad and I didn't want to think about him. Yes, he knows, I'm a bad child, I'm worthless, but what can I do? That's what I feel. I thought it would be a beautiful day, but it wasn't.

I suddenly thought of sunghoon. I'm really stupid. What I was saying to him earlier? Is he angry at me? I immediately picked up my phone, I was going to message him but he already had a text for me.

From:My ali<3
Get some rest ali...i miss you.

I felt guilty. I am very guilty. Why did I tell him that earlier? I know he's just worried about me. I got too carried away with my anger. Suddenly I was annoyed, not with dad but with myself. He didn't know what I would reply to his text. I'm ashamed of how I behaved with him earlier. Maybe I'll tell him to come over tomorrow and talk to him.

I better go to sleep. I hope I'll be okay when I wake up..

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I woke up because of cold wind creeping into my body, I slowly opened my eyes, feeling like someone was caressing my hair, I groaned and looked to my left side. I saw Sunghoon looking at me. Is he caressing my hair while I sleep? Wait, did I lock my room? Yes i did lock it but how did he get into my room?

"Ali...."

"How did you get in here? I locked the door." I immediately asked him "your mom gave me the keys to your room because it's locked" He said. I didn't answer him, I just stared at him until he spoke again

"I'm sorry about last night. I'm sure I hurted you, I can still see your dried tears that marked on your face.... Last night I couldn't sleep well, because I was thinking about you. just hearing you cry so hard, wanting me to break the door of your room to see you"

I felt guilty again when he said that, I just hugged him tightly "I'm also sorry for what I said to you, I was too taken over by my anger..I'm sorry my ali"

Honestly, I don't really want Sunghoon to leave, but I can't do anything, I can't control myself anymore. He didn't say a word he just hugged me back, placing his two hand on my waist. His palms are quite big I think he could grab my waist by his one hand.

A few mimutes late he aleardy broke the hug and looked into my eyes, Sunghoon brushes my hair away from my forehead, places a tiny kiss on the middle.

"How's my mini me?"

He said and looked behind me.

"There, he's still sleeping. He was very worried about me last night because he saw me cry, I tried my best not to cry because I don't want him to see me cry. I want to be brave in front of him." I said.

"Really? you care about your son a lot" he added "well can't do anythingthing about it. He's my only baby boy, nothing can change that. He's mommy's boy" I said and went back to lying down, I lifted his head carefully and placed it on my arms, I want to hold him while he sleeps. I signaled Sunghoon to lie down on the right side and he quickly followed it.

"hoon..."

"hm??"

"What about when our son grows up? I'm scared when the day comes that I won't be able to hold him like this when he's asleep... Time flies so fast you know that. I don't want him to grow up, I just want him to be a baby forever" I said. as a parent I want to hold Jihun forever Like a baby. but we can't stop the time. There's nothing we can do "he's my baby boy after all....things will be not the same when he grows up."

"Well ali, there's nothing we can do. We can't stop him from growing. I also don't want him to grow that fast but we can't stop it. Let's just spend our time with him while he's young. I'm sure that he'll still think of you as his mother when he grows up."

"You're right but I'm still upset about it.."

"Then you wanna have a 2nd child?, we can have more" Sunghoon gave him a naughty smile but immediately stops when he saw jake glaring at him

"wow? 2nd child? Do you think taking care of a child is easy?, you can't even watch your son, and you're suggesting to have more kids?"

"Fineee. But-"

"Shhh no." I sighed and looked at Jihun, who was sleeping peacefully. well i guess he got very tired last night....actually it's fine with me if we add another child. the problem is who will watch. I'm having a hard time looking after Jihun and we can add more but not now. Maybe soon? If jihun becomes a little older?

"Ali. Let's eat, I'm hungry."

I looked at him and I was about to speak but he already cutted me off

"Don't worry they already left."

I smiled at him and pinched his cheeks " you know me so well. I love you"

"I love you more!"