H2O Delirious and Vanoss

Talking is good (Part 2)

Evan's POV

"Do you ever get that feeling of not being able to help," especially when that person is someone you love. The world stops when you can't do anything about It. You feel so small and you just can't seem to get bigger; you try but, "you hope for the best."

Sitting down next to Jonathan on the cold bathroom floor. The only words I could say was "sorry." My eyes were focusing to a corner when Jonathan leans his head on my shoulder.

"Evan don't be sorry, you didn't do anything wrong."

"Yes I did, I made you worry and now look what I caused."

"Can you stop blaming yourself Evan, please." I am okay. "I just can't eat right now."

"That too." I spat out!" "You can't eat Jonathan!" I am really worried about you. It looks like you lost 20lb since I got here.

"Evan look I will make you a deal for the good of our relationship."

"Yeah then what is it?" At that point I had so many emotions going through me; So I just listen to Jonathan. Wait here he said and got up to the bathroom cabinet. He then pulled out a medicine bottle and sat right next to me again. He had a sad look in his eyes.

"Evan I know you know about these pills but, I think it is time for me to take them again. The whole time he was talking he just kept his eyes locked on the bottle and, just seemed like he didn't want too. "I felt so bad, I just wanted to say something but, I need to be calm right now since this is a big moment for the two of us; I don't want him to take them, "thats why I am here; to make him feel better.

"Look Jonathan you don't need." Right when I was about to say my sentence Jonathan stopped me.

"Evan I don't want to be miserable all the time." "Plus maybe if I take them, they can help me eat again."

I see his eyes filled with sadness and a little bit of relief. I think he really wants to take them. I can't make him stop. Well I guess if they make him feel better.

"Okay Jonathan if they help you," that's all I want for you, "to be better."

"Thank you Evan, thank you for understanding and listening."

I then stand up on my feet and held out my hand for Jonathan to get up with me. Pulling him up, I give him a hug. He was stiff for a minute then hugs me back and said, "What was that for Evan?"

"It's because I love you and that's what couples do, kissing his cheek and looked into his blue eyes. "No matter what you do, I will always be your shoulder to lean on." Tears began to fall from his eyes and a crooked smile formed on his face. With that he throws himself again into my arms and whispers. "I love you, forever." He then takes two pills out and grabs a cup from the cabinet and takes them.

We sat across from each other inside the bathroom for an hour, just talking and laughing when Jonathan looked so tired.

"Hey sleepy head you want to go take a nap?" I said almost whispering. He then looked at me, his eyes were half way close and, he gives me a goofy smile and noodles his head yes.

"Okay let's go." I helped him get up and carried him to the bedroom. Settling him down he whines.

"Eeevaann," take a nap with me."

He sounded so cute when he was half asleep. I can't say no. "Well since you asked, teasing him a little." He chuckled, " shut up and join me." I laughed to the eagerness in his tone. "Okay," crawling next to him and wrapping my arms around his waist. I placed my head head on his back listening to him breath until it became shallow. I hope he gets better, he needs to.