H2O Delirious and Vanoss

Eunoia

I became insane, with long intervals of horrible
Sanity. - Edgar Allan Poe

"Run! Run as fast as you can, don't look back because what you may remember is all the taunting memories, the good and the bad."

Jonathan's POV

Those are my mothers words, she would always be wiser then she was afraid.  I am afraid. I am tired, "I am done."

     I Awoken from a dream filled with sheer pain, that has risen me up from the peaceful state I will ever be in, but yet life just doesn't want me to be at rest. My eyes heavy and my mind clear of thought; I was still in Evans embrace  and I really wanted to get up. I had nothing special to do...."or did I." Ever since my life has been getting bad I became an alcoholic and did some drugs here and there yet, I had better intentions then to do drugs, so I stuck myself in the curse of a bottle, filled with a potion to make you forget what your troubles were for a split moment of time, then you wake up to only remember everything and with guilt hovering over you. "Now it's time to feel no guilt for once."

(Morning)

Evan's POV

Waking up form a rather good nights worth of sleep, I felt a little bit better. Stretching and rubbing my still sleepy eyes, I reach over with one hand to find Jonathan, or not. I feel around to find nothing, I shot up straight up and he was no where to be found, and there goes my heart racing faster then anything in my body. I look over to see if he was in the bathroom, no luck the door was opened and the light was off. Okay, now is the time to panic again! I jump right out of bed and look down at my phone to check the time, 6:46 am. How long has he been up?

Entering the bathroom I only peek my head in to see if he was in there, no luck but something felt wrong in my gut. "Okay Evan he must be down stairs or something." I was so scared to be honest, he shouldn't be up this early, especially with all the shit that he's been going through...."now that I think of it, why?" It kinda hurts me that he doesn't tell me all of his problems, I want to to know more about this mysterious man I call my boyfriend. Stepping on the last step of the stair-way I scan the kitchen, the lights were found and I could see pretty much the whole view of it, but no Jonathan. I didn't dare move form this step, only for me to call out for him and no response. "Okay he's done this before maybe he went outside to get some fresh air.

Yup, he's defiantly outside he's no where to be found, not even on the couch nor his gaming room. Once I open the the main door a huge gust of iced cold air chilled my entire body, with every strain of hair risen up at its highest. I quickly run over to the cough to find that blanket we always share when we end up on the couch together, to watch t.v or Netflix and YouTube. Wrapping my exposed arms and head I scan once more of my surrounding then, there I go to search the premises. "I hope he is still wearing that long sleeved shirt I got out for him to wear. It's the beginning of October, and it's already cold as fuck.

  The back was my main target but, I didn't want to get ahead of myself, yet my heart still was. (20 minutes pass by) "NOW I CAN FUCKEN PANIC!" He's no where in the yard as I stand in the middle of it staring at the massive home. I stood in silence, to think of another place Jon could of gone, then it hit me---"THE WOODS!" As I particle yelled out. "I am coming Jonathan!"

Breaking every branch that got in my way or caught on the blanket thrown over me. "JONATHAN!" I call out, the woods where thick of moss and damned with dead leaves scattering the mushy ground. "I hope he didn't go to far and got lost."

After searching even deeper, I stop in my tracks. I feel a presents, and move my head from left to right---nothing. Then I felt eyes hunting me from the back of my head, I quickly turned around to see a scary figure, hoping not to be Jonathan, but it was. He was siting against a giant tree that was practically dead. His head was bow down, and he was in crisscross position. The image was scary but the thing that through me off guard was his eyes. He didn't use his head to look up at me but only for him to use his eyes only, it scared me, he has a different look. I call out too him, as I shout with caution not to trigger anything. I couldn't see much of his face but his eyes were the main thing that stood out the most in the dark atmosphere. "Jonathan what are you doing, as I dare to step closer to the man." Once approaching him he had a joker like smile, almost craved into his face. "Holy shit Jon, what are you doing?" No response, only that creepy look on his face. "Ok--- not talking I get it, but you are going to get sick as my teeth jitter under my voice." Again he had no reaction to my questions and statements. I take a deep breath and stood inches way from his position. He was covered in mud and other muck. "Come one lets going insi--." My eye widen. "JONATHAN WHAT DID YOU DO!!" He still had that creepy smile and looks at me. "Nothing, I did nothing, he tilts his head and he smiled with his teeth this time." What I was looking at made my stomach turn and I stopped myself from crying, 'both of his arms were craved deeply from a sharp object, and both littered with small cut.' "O-k, my stomach turned." "Jonathan lets go please I need to help you." I was getting really dizzy and I was startled, he began to speaks again. "Hahahahahahhahahah, Evan help me, no one can do that." He pulls out a bottle from his side and takes a sip. "Bab-" I try saying but cut off instantly. "Evan--Evan-- (pause) Evan, no one can help me, not even yo-. "DONT YOU FUCKEN SAY IT, I CAN HELP YOU, I CAN!" My chest rising back and forth for the anger that was filling me inside. "Jon I love you please let m-." He laughs again but you can hear pain and sarcasm in it. HAHAHAHAHAH, "love," what the fuck is that feeling hahaha, I can't feel Evan, I just can't." I was starting to lose my patient yet again I tried convincing him, only to be cut off again, this time he had motion. "Just watch." He takes the bottle of whisky and pours it over his left arm. With no emotion he was staring straight in to my eyes. "See, you can't fix me Evan, you just can't." His voice got lower and more anger could be heard, I yelled at him but,wish I hadn't. "YOU'RE DRUNK JONATHAN!" THATS WHY!" Again the injured man laughs again. "So you need more proof huh." He did the most scariest then ever, he breaks the almost empty bootle as he shatters it against a rock. He then picks up a shard and giggles. "Just watch this my love." He runs it agains his right wrist. "NO!" I ran and picked him up, with sudden action, he dropped the shard. "PUT ME DOWN, NOW! As he began to get violent. I put his on his feet and bear hugged his from behind. "STOP JONATHAN, YOU'RE GOING TO BE OK!" I held him unlit he went limp. "SHIT!" I wrapped his up with the blanket and through him over my shoulder, and ran towards the house.

Once the house was visible I ran straight to any door I could see and kicked it open. "Why--why--why!" I placed him gently on the couch, with the blanket snugged around him, I ran to get the fist aid kit.

I did everything to make him feel better, why-why can't he see how much I love him? "Yet he can't see it...not yet." Feeling his pulse it was stable, he must of black out on the alcohol, which reminded me to search the house for anymore. I sat on the floor beside him watching him sleep in peace. He would jump a little and sometimes twitch, but I would just grab his hand and hold it firmly. I still felt sick to my stomach, "this has too stop Jonathan," I said out loud; then my voice soften and I cried "I love you." The morning light was now visible and the day has just begun. Now sleep my love it will be okay, when you wake up, you will be o-ok.

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