Those eyes

Everything is starting to go to shit

Y/n's POV.

"What did she tell you?" I ask victoria as she sits down next to me.
"She's worried about you."
"Pff another lie" I say looking out the window watching the plane take off at its fastest speed.
"I don't think she's lying, she sounded pretty worried about you" she says taking my hand knowing how nervous flying made me.
"I don't care anymore, I don't want to be talked about her ever again" I say with my eyes full of tears and vic just nodded with a sad face.

When the plane was already in the sky I got up from my seat and went to the small room and locked the door, went to the refrigerator and took a bottle of chilled champagne.

Remembering all the beautiful things Elizabeth and I had experienced, I drank all my sorrows in alcohol, needing to drink something stronger I went to the refrigerator again and took a bottle of vodka and drank it straight from the bottle, I could feel my tears burning my cheeks from crying so much.

We arrived at Glendale Erazona, I was already a little drunk but I knew how to act sober so Vic wouldn't scold me.

Arriving at the stadium where I was going to perform my team began to do my makeup and hair, in a pink thermos I put vodka so no one would notice what I was drinking, alcohol was definitely helping me feel better.

"Y/n/n in twenty"
"K"

I was about to leave the room.
"Dylan what are you doing here?"
"What do you mean what am I doing here? I came to watch my girlfriend do her show" says the man grabbing me by the waist.
'Great y/n now he thinks we are dating' I thought.
"How nice of you" I said smiling at him.
He pulls me closer to him and gives me a kiss on my lips.
"You taste like vodka."
I laughed "it's because I've been drinking silly".
"Oh you turned into a fun girl, I like that."
"What do you mean by that? Wasn't I fun?"
"Oh honey no one would like you if you wouldn't drink, your personality is better when you're drunk" he says giving me a kiss on my forehead.
"Oh okay, I'll keep that in mind" I said giving him a kiss on his lips and winking at him.

Walking towards the stage I started thinking about what Dylan had told me, maybe it's true what he says, maybe that's why Elizabeth got tired of me, maybe if I start drinking more people will like me.
The concert was a nightmare for me, every time I sang a love song I remembered her and my eyes filled with tears in some parts of the songs tears fell from my eyes, I tried to keep my smile to convince my fans that everything was ok, I had by my side all the time the thermos full of vodka, I was giving it shots to pass the pain I was feeling.

I'm in my dressing room feeling a little sick from the alcohol as I haven't eaten anything since yesterday at breakfast, I felt my world spinning and ran to the bathroom, I threw up all the alcohol I had drunk.

"Fuck" I said emptying the toilet and going to the sink to wash my mouth out.
"Oh my god honey what happened?" Vic says worried.
"I'm fine."
"You're not fine, stop lying to me."
"Oh come on vic, don't start now."
"Baby look what I brought" Dylan says walking into the room showing a bottle of don Julio 1942.
"Baby that's great, let's drink it" I said taking the bottle.
"Baby?" I hear vic says whispering.
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Nobody's POV.

It's just a day away for y/n to start filming Wanda's new movie where she will be the queen of chaos, all this week y/n has been touring four different cities in the US.

Without lying you can tell that the break up with Elizabeth has been pretty hard for her, she has lost too much weight in that week, she hasn't eaten anything and she keeps drunk, Dylan doesn't help her with that problem as he also keeps drunk and is the one who buys most of the alcohol for y/n to keep being "fun".

Y/n lies to herself saying she drinks to be more fun but deep inside she does it so she can forget about the green eyed woman which is simply impossible for her.

Right now she is at home in Los Angeles going over her lines to be ready for tomorrow.
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The first week of filming has passed and it has been totally difficult for y/n to ignore Lizzie's presence, sometimes the green-eyed woman tries to approach her but y/n totally avoids her.

At this point alcohol could no longer help the woman feel a little better about her life, on the contrary it made her feel pathetic.

It was time for her to make a decision that was probably going to be the worst decision she was ever going to make in her life.
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Y/n's POV.

"Kevin hi, can I talk to you please?"  I said walking into his office.
"Y/n/n hi, sure what's up?"
"Well I know it's only been a week since we started filming but I can't do this anymore, it's getting a little too hard for me" I say with my eyes now filled with tears.
"Oh wait a second" he says sweetly.
"I'm really sorry Kevin, I know this is unprofessional but I swear I don't know what else to do, my heart hurts, my body hurts and I can't concentrate no matter how hard I try, I have to give up."
"Y/n/n listen to me, the other producers are not going to let you quit" he says taking my hands "there is too much money invested in this movie, plus they want you to be the one playing the queen of chaos, look we can do this, I will talk to them to give you a month and a half so you can get better and come to work with a better disposition"
"Okay, thank you" I said dropping a few tears that I quickly wiped away.
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"Are you sure you want to do this?"
"Yes vic, you've asked me fifteen times already, are all the media out?"
"Yes, just like you asked me."
"Thank you."

I walked to the room where all the media was waiting for me, I stood in front of the microphone to give my statement.

"Good evening everyone, I have summoned you here because I want this information to reach everyone" I said looking towards the cameras "first of all I want to thank my fans for all the unconditional support you have given me over the years, you don't know how much I love you and how truly grateful I am to each one of you, I want to thank the media that are here today, with deep sadness I want to let you know that as of today I will be retiring from the stage and acting for a while, I'm sorry if I disappoint you, I hope you remember that I love you and I hope I can come back soon to do what I love so much". I said walking away from the microphone and walking towards the door of the room.
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"God I can't believe you want to do this with me" he says excitedly.
"You're my boyfriend so living together in London makes sense" I say trying to camouflage my boredom.