dearest diary

Diary entry 3

Sunday April 16th, 2023

Hello again friends! 

As you will be able to tell, I'm in a much better mood today. I'm much happier.

I didn't do anything productive today except make my bed, but that's still good!

Friendly reminder, even if you feel like ur unproductive, just getting up out of bed, or eating something, or drinking water, is productive! Please, never feel like you're useless because you "weren't productive" It's okay to not want to do anything sometimes! 

Your feelings are valid <3

Anyway, I have another poem for you all, and be aware, it's also kinda sad, so, sorry about that.

Hope ya like it.

Hidden Sadness.

I hate seeing people cry,

I hate when I see people who are sad.

So I make sure their tears are dry,

and do my best not to make them mad.

I hate to watch other people hurt,

even when I'm hurt myself.

I would much rather not blurt,

and keep my feelings hidden on the shelf.

I hide the sad feeling

Behind a large brick wall,

I am good at dealing

with it all.

I don't show my sadness,

because I don't want to make others worry,

it brings me gladness,

when what people see about me is blurry.

I hate seeing my friends cry,

I hate seeing them upset,

So I just make up a lie,

and make sure my eyes aren't wet.

It makes me happy to see

my friends in a good mood,

Even if I don't let my feelings break free,

I never let my feelings get viewed.

I'm sorry it's sad. A lot of my poems are sad, but I can't really help it, ig sad poems are just easy to write for me. But please, don't think I'm upset rn, I'm actually in a really good mood!

Anyway.

Some things about today.

I ate cookies & cream ice cream, that was good.

I Had some mac & cheese that wasn't that good, but I ate it all bc I would feel bad if my mom found the rest of it in the trash bc she paid for it.

I'm watching Hamilton as I'm writing this, and omg, y'all have no idea how much I love Hamilton. I've watched it over 20 times at LEAST.

Track meet tomorrow + school.

Not super excited for that, but I'll be fine.

I just realized that you guys are going to see my mood change 24/7 when I write these entries. I'll be upset in one, and then happy in another. lol.

Okay, so, idrk what else to write right now, but if somethings else happens, or I figure out what else to write, I'll write more.

Also, I plan on writing a few more chapters of "If Hearts Could Heal" After this, so Y'all will get another chapter tonight.

Much love to all <3

~Jaylen {Author}