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[Monolog - Pamungkas]

Hari itu, 13 Agustus 2022
Bogor, di dalam mobil, supporteran
(tanpa samaran)

Lagu ini adalah lagu lama yang baru saya tahu ketika saya sedang bersama 'dia' alias tokoh utama yang saya ceritakan disini.
Lagu ini sengaja saya jadikan latar musik di bagian terakhir cerita ini karena memang lagu Monolog ini menyimpan banyak sekali kenangan di dalamnya.
Bagi saya, Monolog adalah dia, dan dia adalah Monolog.

Jadi, selamat datang di bagian terakhir dari kisah kami. Semoga membekas di hati.

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Bogor,
15 April 2023
(Tanpa samaran)

hello, it's Diara. (nama samaran)
before we begin, I'll promise this will be the last time i write something about you. i promise will never talk about you nor about how my day went by without you.
to be honest, until this time i still don't know why you just walked away without even explaining it. you just left without ever looking back—to me.
i know all the blame lies with me and i'll never disprove it. but why don't you explain a little bit more clearly about anything 'bout us?
i'd rather be hurt by your honesty than be kept guessing day by day.
i know since the day we met, we'll never be 'us'. cause i'm just a second choice and 'She' will be your first choice and always your choice.
so, why don't you just focusing your mind and your soul only for her without cram me into your 'story' ?
why don't you just walk away without greet me?
this might sound very cliché and a little overstating. but i love you more than you think, more than you expecting.
but if you choose to leave me, i won't and will never forbid you. just go as far and as free as you want.
but if sometimes you need a shoulder to lay on or a hug to give you warm embrace, just look back cause i'll always stand here and be the biggest fan of you no matter what they say.
the last but not least, thank you for every-things you've given to me. thank you for bring me to the new experiences that i'll never forget. and i'm so sorry for all the mistakes i did and sorry if i always 'ngilang' when you need me. hehe.
have a nice day, always.

with a bunch of love,
Diara 🤍