Love vs Lust

I Will Not Cry....

Ok well here goes another chapter, again I'm gonna say to anyone who bothered to get through the last five chapters and are even considering reading this one... THANK YOU!!!!!! you have no idea how much that means to me. Im gonna try and make this one a little more dramatic and exciting.

P.S. Votes would be amazing but I'd LOVE for some comments. Constuctive criticism, as long as you go into reasonable detail and dont just say it sucks. I'm aware its not great,thats why i need your opinion on how to make it better. Random thoughts on the story or characters are something I'd love to see aswell. Anyways, thats all for now.♡♥♡

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Jay's POV

Jay....
....Jay
Jay....

I groan and squeeze my arms and legs harder around my fluffy lime green body pillow.I distantly hear someone chuckle "Jay come on get up" someone says, I press my face into my hard pillow... wait isnt my pillow soft and fluffy... I put my hand against the hard surface and press on it to see if it'll collapse like any other pillow would. It doesnt. I do feel a rumble run through it as another chuckle sounds through the room. I decide its the wall and turn away from it, curling my legs and pressing my butt up against it. With a soft contented moan I bring my hands up beside my face and prepare to fall into a beautiful sleep once again.

Instead I'm flipped over on my back with my hands pinned on either side of my head. Looking up at non other than Cyrus, Derek, Mathews himself, smirking down at me. "You really shouldn't do that" he whispers "mmmmm, do what ?" I say dropping my head to the side trying to find a comfortable way to fall back to sleep with him pinning my hands. My mission is soon forgotten, as I feel his warm lips press down against my sweet spot on my neck. I jump up...or at least I try to but I'm just pressed further into the mattress.

"W...what?... I....where am I?" I stutter in confusion, he chuckles again and looks at me with amusement dancing in his eyes. " don't tell me you forgot already?" He leans down kissing my neck again without letting me speak "allow me to remind you" he mumbles against my neck, hands roaming over my body. "I...I'm still at your house?" I ask, confusion lacing my voice. He pulls the sheet I had wrapped around me down and his hands stop at my breasts where he massages me making me moan out loud as he brings his mouth down to do the same.

I'm writhing and wriggling, making noises I've never made for any guy before. He smiles up at me devilishly "remember now" he asks " I never forgot" I whisper making him raise an eyebrow at me "I just forgot I was still here" I explain. He frowns at me "why wouldn't you be?" he says, I don't explain how on the few times I had a one night stand I had woken up while they were asleep and slipped out before my brothers could suspect I did anything other than have a good time at the party.The fact that I didnt do that terrifies me, beyond belief, because it implies that it was more than that to me.

"What time is..." I'm cut off mid sentence as his hand slips between my legs, I snap my eyes towards him." you were saying?" He whispers in my ear, the only thing I can manage is a shake of my head as he rubs slow insanity inducing circles with his thumb. "Cyrus" I half moan half plead. I feel him smile against my neck as he makes that last move with his finger I've been craving for. My back arches and I cry out.

Sudenly I remember a thought I had when I first saw him in the cafeteria and I smile to my self. He is both willing and perfectly able to make you feel a pasion so intense you shatter.

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I smile as I pull my books closer against my chest. Theres a gasp beside me "you slept with him, didnt you?!" Karma whispers acusedly "was I not suposed to?" I ask giving her an amused look. She glares at me "No!! Your suposed to be the one girl in this school who hasnt slept with him!" I shrug, smiling "so we've both slept with him, it'll give us one more thing to bond over" I say slinging an arm around her shoulders. "I... I didnt" she stutters out while blushing furiously "you didnt have too" I say grinning at her. "Ugh! Dont smile like that" I hear my brother Josh's voice as I pass him in the hall "I'll smile if i want to smile" I half shout over my shoulder "you can smile just not like..." Nate says as he joins the conversation. "That!!" Mat says, pointing at my face and walking past me, to stand next to Josh and Nate "oh, really and how am I smiling?" I ask them in a tone that lets them know they're acting like idiots. "The 'I just got laid' smile" Josh says grimacing. I grin full fledged now "So what if I did" I say laughing as I see all their faces form into masks of disgust and horror. I steer a laughing Karma in the direction of our physics class, the only class we have together.