ARRANGED TO CRUSH.(complete)

the unknown fear

Ishani' s pov

I had just return from marriage function. And only god knows how I had manage this much. All aunty we're like ishu beta your are Next. means seriously like I am completing my 22 in next to month and they were like I am Completing my 50.

"For me marriage are partnership of two people where respect is given n taken by both parties. Both are equal in it. " This was mihir's exact words after he was asked about his opinion on marriage.

Such gentlemen he is. But in between this some where in my mind this unknown fear crept me that what if I will never be able to express my feeling to him. My parents are all set to get me married you know  typical Indian girls parent.

Ok i hope that completing almost all desire of my parents .and every time going with world famous dialogue of parents that ,"kya tum aapne maa baap ke liye  itna bhi nahi kar sakte".i had given my best completing  their wishes............i have this little wish just them  to approve the guy i like .......just not getting there ego hurt they should be happy all through  he fulfilled all the character of their will-to-be-son-in-law...........................but still indian parents have this strange mind set ,i don't know why all ignore this it's not only parents do sacrifices for their child ,children also do ,many sacrifices their dream,their passion ,their friend , their love,their enjoyment ,their fun ......but still anything done by younger people are ignore except mistake .....parents found it their insult that their child have chosen their better half .they define it's as child's over smartness . ........hey god please do some magic ......

i  was eating me literally my mind have fuck up ......i think think and think then getting nothing in end naturally shifted to sleep.....

IN Morning

I had just returned from morning walk with my mother ....i know every time my mother have this habit of lecturing when ever she find some time what to do,some time how useless i have been...and what not........when i returned from training for 1 month of break initially i thought my parents have been progress due to my absence and this is resulting in it this much pampering  but after yesterday function the way my mother is introducing me to all present their ....the way she was lecturing me some time ago ..i am damn sure they are preparing my mind to get me married ......

while helping my mother with breakfast , i was thinking how i should prepare myself to face this marriage thing how gently and in safe way i  should inform them about my liking toward mihir to way.

we were seated on dinning table eating breakfast ,when my family decide to drop bomb on me .

"beta there is some thing i will like to inform you n it's important",my father said

and my mother continue ,"there is boy family who is interested in you .we want you to meet them."

"whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat." i shouted out 

"what what you are 22 at your age i had you .there is boy family .and they are coming to meet you in evening  ,you are preparing for that ,wear your purple dress  which maasi had given you and before evening you are cleaning living room and changing curtains and bedsheets of your bedroom i don't want them to think they have enter in some hell looking at that much dark and sahil you have to clean front porch n garden.and this is end of this .no further argument." my mother order yes order.

and usual i continue you my breakfast ,absolutely giving no reaction which i learn from my childhood it always have been like this .helpless me and controlling freak my parents.....i wonder were i had gone wrong in almost  22 year of my life to deserve this.