it is true that i never felt pain for a very long time but when i remember your long-gone love realizing it's all i have after you leave, it was then i have numb all the pain from the things that i should have cried about and now, it only hurts this much.
i found out that i loved you way too much and i was broken by the fact i was enduring all these times. and none of the things you left me actually made me feel loved and treasured. because, i wouldn't feel numb when i acted to create my own place to know your love was a medication from the bruises of my past but all this time, i was not mending. i was aching pain so deeply that i couldn't know anymore what was to feel home and to feel abandoned when i find them no differences at all. when i thought i met home in you, it only brought me to nowhere; so i'm still here. aching the reason why you loved me but 'twas all the pain i could remember. in my lonely afternoon. in parks. in our photographs. in my skin and in any ways, you taught me this was your love. i always taught so that you know my heart to handle it too well, but i failed to see that you became familiar with my scars and i guess you knew from then how to break it. now, i'm enduring it this much and i don't know how to heal anymore when all i have ever been to know love is...about you.
and it's excruciatingly painful.
01.09.23
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SolenneDream
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Some Memories Hurt the Same
Puisifor you if memories keep coming back inside your head at 2am, most nights and no more pain to feel anymore...but for me, it hurts the same way just like before.
