The Light that Led Me To Him

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-Kausiwa-

"Okay." It didn't hit me until I said that, but did he say our home? I gathered the courage to talk about while we were walking. "What do you mean our home?" "Oh! Since you are my soulmate, you will live with me and my children." I felt hurt when I learned about him having children. I frowned at the idea of him having another woman. I was confused as to why I felt like this. Why do I feel like this? I barely know him. He seemed to notice my change in behavior. "They are the children of me and my previous mate. Me and her separated because she found her soulmate and wanted to be with him. She is the Tsahìk of our clan. Her name is Ronal. My children are called Ao'nung and Tsireya." I felt happy when he said that. "Got it." 

Tonowari turned his head to me to look at me with a worried expression which made me worry, too. " I have to warn you. The people might not accept you quickly due to you being a Na'vi of the icy mountains." I started to worry more when he said that. "Why would they not accept me because of that?" "It is said that those of the mountains are prideful, cruel, and love to be in wars. They are said to be ruthless and never leave the mountains. They will never help any clans when they are in trouble and refuse to ask for or accept help, but I know that you are different from them." "How?" "Because you just are, and I feel it deep in my heart." I blushed a little when he said that about me. He doesn't know me, yet he is willing to say that about me. It's cute how sincere he was when he said that.

Tonowari stopped in front of a marui and turned to look at me. "This is my home, and your new home. My children will likely be here for dinner or to tell me that they want to have dinner with Ronal." Tonowari held his hand out to me and I shyly grabbed it. He smiled and led me into our home. I hope his children won't dislike me too much.

-Tonowari-

She seems to be worried about something. I don't want her to be constantly worried about not being liked. I don't know why, but I can feel that she has been through a lot, even if she doesn't remember. I turned around and closed the curtains of our marui with my available hand. I led her to the back of the marui and sat down. I gently tug for her to join me, but she lost her balance and fell on my lap. She look at me and blushed a dark shade of purple. When she tried to get up, I pulled her back down to lap and hugged tight. I could feel her breath hitch, and I chuckled. "There is no need to be embarrassed darling." I felt her shoulders sag, so I looked at her. "Kausiwa, are you alright?" When she had a blank expression and didn't respond, it made me extremely worried. "Kausiwa! Kausiwa! Kausiwa!" I shook her until I saw her shed a tear.

-Kausiwa-

I can hear the Tonowari yelling my name, but I can't stop myself from blacking out. When I open my eyes, I see myself on a battle on a battle holding someone's hand crying and screaming. He had an several arrows piercing him. "Tuangu! Don't leave me! I need you! You are all I have! I can't lose you like our son!" Tuangu lifted his hand to my face and caressed it. "I see you, darling, and I love you. I want you to keep living for me and Keew'o. Find someone that will love you no matter what, and fight to keep them. If you find your soulmate... give them a chance... get to... know them... I love..." Before he could finish his sentence he died, and I felt so much pain and sadness. I lost my mate. "Tuangu! Tuangu! Tuangu!" I screamed and cried louder. It all started to fade to black, and I woke up to a worried Tonowari shaking me. He looked so relieved and happy to see my eyes open. I open my eyes wide and hugged Tonowari while crying. 

I was shaking from the memory I had experienced. I was in a lot of pain from it, but Tonowari made it feel better. Tonowari was rubbing my back comforting me. I felt safe with him. Is this what a soulmate bond is? It feels nice. Tonowari seems like a good mate to have. I wonder what he's like with his children and the other clan members. Tonowari broke my thoughts when he spoke. "Are you okay? What happened?" I could hear the worry in his voice. I pulled away to look him in the eyes. "When you called me darling, it caused me to see a memory of my past. I had a mate a son, but they are both dead. I don't know how my son died, but my ex mate died on a battlefield. His name was Tuangu, and my son was Keew'o." I started to crying again, and Tonowari wiped my tears. "It's alright. I'm here for you. Don't cry, it makes me sad to see you cry.

I took a deep to calm down. After I calmed down, I realized that me and Tonowari were really close, due to me still being on his lap. I felt really embarrassed again. "Sorry." I tried to get off, but he pulled down and closer to him. "There is nothing to be embarrassed of. I seeing you in this position." That made me look away blushing, but when I looked back at him and met his eyes, I felt a strong pull to him. It seems like he felt it too. Our faces gradually got closer. We stopped our moving when we were barely two centimeters away from kissing. Tonowari was the first to speak. "I don't want to force you. You just remember something painful." "I know, but I am fine with it if it's you. I feel safe and happy with you, even though I barely know yo-" I was interrupted by Tonowari kissing me. I kissed him back. This feels right. We heard someone clear their throat, so we pulled away. I turned around to see two teenagers.