My Star Guide, Polaris (Oshi No Ko Fanfic) (Under Hiatus and Restructuring)

A Static Dream

Miyabi POV
XXXXXXX XX, 2023

It was yet another day spent in this hospital bed, ever since that incident that happened to me when I was 8, I've been practically glued to it. The only instances that I was away from it is when the nurses take me out for some fresh air, but I never get to go beyond the hospital walls. It's been 8 years ever since I've got to walk with my own legs and effort, I feel like I've forgotten about that sensation.

The early days consisted of me seeing how the world pass by me, where a day felt just like a minute. I've become numb to it. Until that fateful day, the day I met the only person who I considered my friend.

Maxwell, a kid that got admitted to the hospital back then and stayed by a bed beside mine. He was the cheerful sort, extremely positive that you might think he can vomit rainbows for the sake of it. He was there to stay to get treatment for his cancer treatment.

I didn't talk to him or gave him any attention during the first days. I spent my time either with a blank face looking at sky or outside the window, longing to go outside, run, walk, and experience life for what it is. What sparked it all was the fact he wasn't bothering me and annoying me one day, which I might've gotten a little used to, and the sound of paper, the sound of a page being turned. It got my attention at that time, curious about what that page has. It turned out to be school textbooks.

I've stopped my schooling altogether during my admission to the hospital in hopes it would help my parents get money for any form of surgery or treatment for me. But problem after problem came up after the incident. The company my father works for files for bankruptcy, my mother was caught having an affair, and in a middle of a fight between my mother and father, they accidentally caused a fire in the house burning it down, along with my one and only younger sister. It all felt like my accident was the catalyst for my family's fall. I blamed myself for all of it.

What kept me staying at hospital was the kindness and pity of both my now deceased grandparents. They left a will stating that 40% of their fortune would be used for my treatment and stay at the hospital, obviously not wanting to give much to my parents themselves after they've gotten into a lot of issues.

Because of the sound of those pages being flipped, we started talking bit by bit. What surprised me was that he continued talking to me once he survived his sickness. We must've gotten close than I realize. He willingly visited me, sharing the books he has and any other literature works. It all started from textbooks to novels, mangas, and light novels. I don't know why he did all of this for me, but I'm grateful for it.

Moving to present time, I am now 16 but if only I could be in school, I would be considered advanced and would be put in the college level. I was reading the latest and last chapter of Oshi no Ko. I've gotten hooked on to it ever since the first couple of chapters. It all started like it was centered on Ai, the mother of the protagonists, even with all the chapters that looked back in her character, her motivations, her past, it resonated with me. She felt more human than any other manga character I knew about. I cried as if a dam opened its gates and let all the water out, I cried as Maxwell laughed at my crying face after seeing my reaction to it in real time.

Then the manga proceeds the story on Hoshino Aquamarine's path on revenge on Ai's murderer, being a reincarnated person with all their memories intact, Aqua concluded that it must be their father behind all of it. Aqua's former life was that of an gynecologist in his 30s with the name of Amemiya Gorou. He was reincarnated during the night of delivery of Ai's twins, which coincidentally he reincarnated to. Amemiya is a fan of Ai because of the influence of a former patient named Sarina. He met Ai when she came to the hospital he works at for a check up on her pregnancy which was found to be already around 4 months. He was killed by a frenzied fan of Ai during the night of her supposed delivery.