The first thing "Ze'an" did after he recovered from his illness was to find a moving company to move his old things to a new place and start over.
Maybe it's not considered a new start, just for that person...to live well.
Ji Qin didn't stop him, he and Ji Qin just glanced at each other, and then quickly looked away - it's strange, they used to be best friends and the "perfect couple" in the eyes of others, but now, they can't even talk to each other. Not even the courage to look at each other.
He keenly smelled the strong smell of cigarettes and alcohol in the air, and he was slightly startled, not daring to think too much, only feeling sad.
At this moment, he suddenly caught a glimpse of a painting hanging on the originally empty wall. It was—in his opinion—a cartoon painting with particularly poor brushwork, but it was a result of hard work, and he could see every detail of the artist's work. The strokes are very meticulous, and the colors are also carefully used, as if afraid of making mistakes.
The painting depicts a summer, the sky is as blue as washing, and the boy is playing basketball in his school uniform. The sun falls on the boy's face, as if the boy's whole body is shining.
The painting is...
"It's me."
Ji Qin walked over at some point, his voice especially hoarse, as if he hadn't spoken for several days.
"Ze'an" glanced at him hastily, but quickly withdrew his gaze.
"He painted..."
"...Well." Ji Qin was silent for a while, "It was a gift from him."
...
"He is really, really good."
"Ze'an" was silent for a long time, and murmured .
"Mr. Fang, do you want to move this one?"
"Ze'an" groaned, and walked in the direction of the moving company boy who made the noise, before he couldn't help but glance at Ji Qin.
The man stood in front of the painting with his head bowed, his back was so heavy and desperate that even he himself couldn't help but wet his eyes instantly.
Those of them who stayed and chose to stay in the end, can only redeem their sins for the rest of their lives. As long as he remembered how that person left in despair, he would never be able to forgive himself.
As for Ji Qin, whom that person has always loved deeply...
waves of despair and sadness are like a tsunami, which will overwhelm him at any time. He really didn't dare to think too much about Ji Qin's mental activities, and left the scene in a hurry.
Ji Qin often thinks of that silly, clumsy person who treats him with extra care.
That person is Ze'an.
Once upon a time, in his drunken deep bottomless dreams, he heard the gentle voice of that person, responding to his every call.
He called: Ze'an.
The man surrounded him tenderly and whispered: I am here.
He asked, when will you come back.
The man seemed to hesitate for a while before saying -
I'll be back soon.
He was indeed one of the chief culprits who killed Ze'an. He couldn't even imagine what kind of mentality that Ze'an had in order to answer his cruel questions so gently.
His eyes were blurred, the person he really fell in love with at first sight, fell in love with him so carefully and clumsily, but he paid the wrong love, never gave him a little trust, hated him, despised him and neglected him, in the end, he Successfully...
killed him.
Zean finally wished to go and see his parents with him.
Without even thinking about it, he turned him down. To this day, he still remembers Ze'an's eyes that instantly dimmed.
At that time, he just thought it was ridiculous, that person not only replaced Ze'an he thought, but also wanted to have Ze'an's complete and happy family, it was impossible, he would not let him realize it.
Thinking about it now, that was indeed that Zean's last wish—as the real Zean, before leaving, he saw the family just having a simple reunion meal, trying to keep it as the last consolation.
But I... directly refused.
That summer——
he remembered the shy teenager he met for the first time, the soft touch on his lips at the ktv party, and the tender and tender eyes that that person stayed on him every time they met.
Obviously that person is Ze'an who he liked most at first, how could he treat him like this.
The soul comes alone, and after living hard, it leaves alone, without being recognized by anyone at the moment.
And as the only one who recognized that he was not "Ze'an", I must have brought him more pain.
So, that's it.
He changed back to the "Ze'an" that everyone was looking forward to.
In the end he disappeared, evaporated into the air.
Never see you again.
