Maid || Mashikyu ||

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Mashiho's POV

"Woo, can I stay here?"

"Hyung, what happened?" he held my hands and looked at me with a worried expression. "Is something wrong?"

"Can we talk somewhere private?"

"Ah.. Let's go to my room." We went upstairs. The moment he opened the door, Haruto was spotted.

"Ruto?!"

"Uh.. Hi? I got bored." We sat on the bed and talked. I need someone to talk to. Just not Junkyu. "What happened to you? You look like shit."

"Guys.. I hate my life." Jeongwoo sat beside me. "Mom confirmed that I was Junkyu's dad's son. They were together before my mom married my dad."

"You mean, you and Junkyu are half siblings?" I nodded. "That's messed up. Does he know that you're here?"

"He doesn't, Ruto. I ran away knowing that I'm destroying his relationship with his father. My family is so broken. I don't want his family to break like mine." Jeongwoo hugged me.

"We're here for you hyung.. Don't worry." Ruto also joined the hug. "You can stay here for as long as you want."

"I'm just, not ready to face everyone. Especiall Junkyu. I'm gonna need more time."

Haruto left after an hour and Jeongwoo let me stay in his room. "Hyung, can I tell you something?"

"Sure. What is it about?"

"Remember when Haruto and I did IT? I took your advice and did a pregnancy test. I was puking that day so I assumed something's wrong."

"So? How did it go? Are you pregnant?"

"Nope. Turns out, my food wasn't digested properly. I was really scared. I like Haruto but I'm not responsible."

"That's good."

"But hyung.." he looked at me with a worried expression. "I don't think I just like him. I'm falling for him even more everyday. I kept telling him about this but he always says that, he will just hurt me. He said I should find someone else."

"You do know that Haruto like Junkyu right?" he nodded. "Why don't you try acting like Junkyu?"

"Hm!?"

"You'll never know.." he pouted. "But woo, if you really think that you and Haruto have no chance, I think you should let go. You don't want to push yourself to someone who doesn't want you. You'll end up getting hurt."

"I don't know.. It takes courage to let go. But I'm not brave hyung.. I will just get hurt whether I hold on or let go."

"Right." People say holding on hurts more than letting go. But I think Jeongwoo is right. It will hurt me whatever choice I make. Letting Junkyu go.. I'm scared to do it.

"But let's just forget about it. Sleep is more important." he hugged me tighly. "Good night hyung."

"Night woo." I closed my eyes and slept.

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"Mashiho.. Mashiho hyung.." Jeongwoo kept shaking me. "Hyung wake up. Hyung... Junkyu is here." I immediately opened my eyes.

"What did you say?"

"He's downstairs. I didn't tell him you're here but...do you.. Want to talk to him?" Will I be able to face him? It hurts me when I remember that he's my half brother. It's hard to accept that fact.

"Jeong-" Both of us turned to the door. "Mashi." He ran towards me and hugged me tight. "You're here.. I've been looking for you the whole night.."

"I'll leave the both of you." Jeongwoo left and closed the door.

"Mashi.. Why did you leave?"

"I had to. I'll ruin your family."

"My family is already ruined. You have nothing to do with this. Nothing is your fault."

"I'm sorry.. Kyu, I think you should leave." He broke the hug, tears streaming down his face.

"W-what?"

"You heard your dad. We can't be together. We're siblings."

"So you're gonna believe them, just like that? Mashi, we're together 'til the end remember?"

"But Junkyu..this is wrong."

"No. Mashiho, that was their fault! We shouldn't be the ones who are paying for it!"

"But we are and we can't go against it! Just leave." I closed my eyes and held my tears back. "We can't keep this going."

"You're kidding, right? Mashi-"

"Kyu just go! Just.. Just go."

"Mashiho... Don't you love me?" Stop bringing this up, Kyu please? You don't know how hard I'm trying to keep myself together. "You still love me, right?"

"I... I-I don't."

"What?"

"I don't love you anymore.. Please, just go."

"Mashi-"

"I don't love you Kyu! Now please just let me be!" It hurts me so much being the one who's pushing him away when he's doing everything to make me stay.

I want him to stay... I don't want to push him away from me. I'm breaking my own heart because of this but I have to. I love Junkyu so much, and I realized it when his dad.. Our dad said we shouldn't be together.

I wanted to spend more time with him. I wanted to keep him but everything just feels so wrong. I didn't want him to go. I don't want to end our relationship but this is wrong. He's my brother. I have to accept it though it's hard.

He held both of my hands. "Mashi, I love you and I'm not giving up on you. I'll have you back."